Endless loop of madness - William afton X reader

13 - His lust

Night has fallen, I sat in William's car, tired but not ready to go home. Despite trying to be nice all day. He wouldn't tell me what was going on. He refused to until we were fully in private.

It was fun today, Clare was alright, we laughed one, teasing William about how organised he had his stuff. It was fine, I wish Henry would have joined in but he said he was busy, earlier. It would have been great and William wouldn't have felt so awkward, dealing with both of us talking about all sorts of stuff he really didn't care or understand.

"You know what, I don't care what happened, you know why?" I said, looking down at my lap, where the two tub of ice cream sat with two spoons on top.

"Because you figured it out?"

"No, because I don't feel stressed out as much as I was before. I might not understand how things are different but I like the change. I don't feel so stressed about work, about you and everything else. I don't know why I cared so much but I felt like I needed to be there to yell at you or outsmart you because you weren't very nice and very not want to get involved with life. Unlike today, you seemed fed up and tired with everything. Why have you suddenly changed?"

"I couldn't deal with another loop. I still can't. I just want it to end, but I don't know how to stop it from happening. This loop was a little bit interesting, because I met you and because you got involved with me, you somehow added yourself into the loop. partly remember what happened in the past. You'll get bored and annoyed pretty quick about how it looks. It will be hell for you, reliving moments you might have wanted to forget. The moment you wish it would end. Killing yourself wouldn't work because your actions from the past will also affect the future loops and you will only remain dead until you die. Then on the next loop. By the time the next loop happened, you would have forgotten everything." William explained.

"So this is a loop you mentioned when we first met. Does this mean I get to understand stuff? I get what I want?" I buzzed in my seat, knowing how badly I had been aching to know things that were happening around William. It drove me to hate him because he was the one insane.

"I guess so and all you had to do was kill me," William smirked. "You did change something in this loop."

"I'm 19, jobless, with Henry acting as a father to me and he has put my safety first. I don't know about you but I feel loved more than I ever did in the past loop. I think I did something good."

"You added yourself into the loop, you are going to be a part of this somehow. Whether you replace someone else or you become an important part. Think of it like a story or whatever the teens come to call playable films these days. Games? I think so."

"Playable film? Children have always called games but what is a playable film? You mean like on TV?"

"No. They are games, but on TV using some device. It's so hard to explain it to you." He spent a few minutes trying to explain to me what a game on TV is like. Arcades but like at home. What is an arcade?

"You have completely lost me." I awkwardly laughed, trying to understand what he was rambling on about.

"The point is that The loops are like a video. We rewind to a safer point before anything bad happens. However, it is always different in some way."

"Like you said the dates have changed,"

"Why has it happened?"

"Because you killed me." He sighed looking away. "It happens anytime I die."

"Why? There has to be a reason? From what I know, is that you did something bad, or maybe that was someone else. I don't know if the dreams weren't that clear. In fact, they never directly say who is who. So I don't know."