"Unreachable me!"- Felix ff ✓

~15~

After hyperventilating in my office and realizing I couldn't go out of this room out of embarrassment, I laid on my office sofa just existing and exhausted...

Why did she come here?... All I do is cry for hours, stop when I'm breathless, and just cry again... I usually get up on my own when things are hard but not this time... I need someone to break my tearful cycle...

It was 11 p.m. so, hopefully, everyone is out of the company at this time... that way no one will see my weak side... The side of the little girl who cried everyday for her mother to come back. The side of the girl whose black and blue heart is not hidden anymore...

I walked outside, with my head low, and someone was sitting on the floor... His head quickly shot up once he saw me and I was taken aback and surprised. I lowered my head back in shame and tried to go back inside my office when he spoke.

"Y/N..."- he called me by my first name...

"You should go home, Felix... It's to late to be working"- I tiredly said.

"I'm not working... I'm waiting for you"- he sounded worried. -"What happened the other day should have never happened because you are my boss? Yes. But that doesn't mean we shouldn't care for each other... "

"I'd rather not... If I stay close to you, I'll just hurt myself... and you... I also didn't want things to happen this way but I can't really deal with feelings right now... I'm tired..."- I wanted to escape this conversation but he held me back by my wrist and spoke.

"I don't want to do that either... But I can't stop thinking about you... And right now I want to comfort you... I want you to rest your head on my chest and hear my heart beat just to know that there is actually a person here for you... You must be going through a lot of old pain today... Maybe you didn't even realize it was there... But you don't need to constantly show me that you're strong... Today, for once, you can be the fragile one between us two..."

I couldn't hold my tears back as I felt embarrassed, angry, sad and all sorts of emotions that are not happiness.

He came to me and carefully held me in his arms. He rested my head on his chest and I felt the most comfortable that I have ever felt in anyone's arms... I could cry with him... He patted my hair and that too made me feel a little warmer from the cold that struck my heart today...

"You must be in pain... It's okay... You have every right to feel as if it's not your fault that you don't want her to be back... It's okay..."- he comforted me.

I felt a little better after crying with him... and so my crying cycle was over...

I took a deep breath and looked up to finally meet his eyes. He lowered his head to meet mine.

"Thank you..."- my voice was breaking tiredly.

He just stared at me and I felt the tension between us grow... He was eyeing my lips like he wanted something from them... If I let him do it... Will I go through the risk of losing him just like I almost did?... I'd rather have friend Felix than not having Felix at all.

But as he gets closer to me... I'm letting it happen... I want his lips to touch mine.

Suddenly the fire alarm went off.

"What is happening?"- I was confused.

We looked around and the designers team A office was burning. The fire will spread.

"We need to leave!!"- Felix said and grabbed my wrist for me to follow him.

I took a moment to absorb what happened and then I finally reacted.
I let go of his grip and ran in the opposite direction.