MASSIVE SELF HARM WARNING.
☹︎Shuichi's POV☺︎︎
I stood there, shocked.
I didn't know what to do,
Do I wake him up?
Do I let him wake up on his own and talk to him after?
I decided to wake up Kokichi, I crouched down and shook his Shoulder gently.
He opened his eyes slowly in response, he looked at me in shock then at the box, then back at me.
"Shui-...Shuichi- I didn't- I didn't do a-anything.. I-I stopped myself see?- I-I-I......I pr-promised! S-see?!- I-I didn't cut myself!!! I-I'm proud of my-myself!!"
He pulled his arms up from under the blanket and held them up with tears in his eyes and a small smile.
There were no new cuts but there were four small bruises next to his cuts, aswell as some dry blood that had made a trail down his arm. His arms were scattered with small bruises and old scars and scabs along with some burns on the bottom side of his arm.
"Y-yeah!- I'm proud of you..!"
I said, not actually knowing what to say.
of course I was happy he didn't cut himself but I didn't know what I should feel about this.
Kokichi let the tears fall from his eyes as he examined his arms, looking disappointed.
"Why didn't you just call me?"
I asked quietly.
"I-I didn't wanna bug you..."
"No No No.. You wouldn't bug me with that, I'd always come and help you."
"S-stop.."
"What?"
"Stop!"
"Stop being so nice to me! SHAME SHAME SHAME.. I COULDN'T EVEN LAST ONE DAY ALONE WITHOUT DOING THIS TO MYSELF SO STOP BEING SO NICE TO ME.. DON'T YOU EVER GET MAD? WHY DO I DESERVE YOUR KINDNESS? I DON'T SO STOP! STOP STOP STOP!!!! I DID THI....I... I did this to myself-myself.. s-so... stop....."
Kokichi yelled as he pulled his blanket back up to his chest.
I sat there shocked.
I just simply nodded and stood up.
I didn't know what the fuck I was doing but..
I walked out of the room and left the dorm, leaving Kokichi sitting there in the bathroom crying, I know it sounds bad but I didn't know what to do!
"FUCK FUCK ME FUCK YOU FUCK EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING JUST LEAVE!!!!"
I heard Kokichi yell at me through sobs.
I ran back to my own dorm and layed down.
He didn't mean it right?-..
☹︎Kokichi's POV☺︎︎
HE LEFT HE LEFT HE LEFT I MADE HIM LEAVE NO NO NO SHUICHI NO NO NO PLEASE PLEASE DON'T HATE ME PLEASE PLEASE SHUICHI I LOVE YOU PLEASE I DON'T ACTUALLY WANT YOU TO LEAVE!!
I pulled on my hair as I cried into my blanket. I kept tugging on my hair. About half and hour later I stood up and looked in the mirror. My face was red and my hair was greasy and messy, I had dark eyebags indicating that I hadn't slept properly. I looked like a fucking zombie. I poked myself in the cheek before starting to cry again.
I took off my scarf and examined my neck in the mirror.
I need this
I need this
I need this
I need this
I need this
I need this
I need this
I need this
I need this
I need this
I need this
I need this
I need this
I need this
I need this
I need this
I need this
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But I don't want this.
Before I knew it my shirt was off and I had blood all over my neck and chest.
I had cut deeply into my chest and neck, cuts covered my neck and the sentance 'I'm so sorry' was carved into my stomach three times.
Blood was everywhere.
I was holding a boxcutter in my hand as I trembled. I stared into the mirror to look at what I had did to myself.
I fell to the ground making the boxcutter get knocked out of my hand, and I grabbed my blanket. I layed down on the cold bloody floor and cried into my blanket.
᪥I kin Kokichi᪥
