Romance is Dead

Chapter 6- Brown and Grey

I'm with Sapphire I look into her eyes that look like pools of honey, brown and light and I can feel her skin in my palms, her hands, one on the back of my neck and one in my hair and suddenly her lips on mine. We are in the back of my car looking out of the hills of my hometown, Fairfield looking into the night sky with the light of the town it looks like there is stars both above us and below us it's like we're in the middle of heaven and earth with just the each other.

She pulls onto me tighter and tighter deepening our kiss and pouring her soul into it and taking mine along with her and I break apart I couldn't hold my breath anymore and as I open my eyes I'm met with a pair of dull grey ones and I see Ruby in front of me sitting on my lap where I thought Sapphire was sitting a minute ago and I can see her face covered with Grey and the fact that her eyes matched them almost perfectly doesn't make me feel anymore better, she starts to move her black lips "You left me" and with that her jaws open wide and I can smell rotten meat which might be hers or of something she had for supper and CLASP her jaws bite down on me.

I gasp and open my eyes and I'm in a dusty tight and dark place I can't seem to remember and they all come back to me and I realize where I am and I notice that I'm sitting straight up and I'm sweaty and I remember the dream and nightmare that came after and I don't know if I'm hot and sweaty because of fear or passion but I can't get my breathing right I'm breathing too heavy I stand up.

I start to walk to the window to get some fresh air, after my hands and my weight are rested on the window I relax a little bit and I start to think where I am right now and suddenly out of the blue I honestly question myself. What am I doing? Where am I going? What is the point of my life? And I had more and more question but no answers and I remember that I have no purpose in life and that my life is meaningless and I think about how I can make my life meaningful again what can I do?

I could continue to live like this until I find a reason or I could go to a survival colony and stay with them but colonies aren't my recommended place to be because in a colony if one person does a mistake it can cost the life of everyone else and I'm not ready to put my life in the hands of another person, maybe I could go to an infection free island? But I'd feel lonely in a big island with just Zira ( Like I'm not feeling lonely already ) , maybe I could get a bunch of survivors and head to an island that way I could have my own perfectly safe colony but where can I get other people? Maybe I could go to a survival colony and make a group of 10 or 15 or any number of people who are willing to come with us to an island to be safe but taking the responsibility of others lives is a big thing and I won't be able to live with myself if something goes wrong and as I think and think and think and the night slips away and I get lost in the beauty of the night sky Zira startles me when she puts a hand on my shoulder, "Geeeeez, Zira you almost gave me a heart attack" I say looking at her,

 she chuckles which annoys me a little but still chuckle a bit and after she returns to a neutral face she starts "Can't sleep huh?", "Nope, what about you?" I ask because it's not like her to wake in the middle of the night let alone in the morning, "yeah no this place is new to us and it's really dusty I just can't get used to it", which make sense this place is really dusty and stuffy and after that we just stare into the night deep in our own thoughts and after a while of just standing there and watching the stars and the patterns they make I decided to break the ice about what's been bothering me, "Zira" I say without turning and she replies without turning as well "yeah?", "What are we doing?" I try to say it in a deeper way, "Reece, I thought you were bright enough to know we were looking at the stars isn't that what we're doing" she replies which clearly shows me she didn't get what I was meaning or she was just messing with me but I decide to peruse anyway, "Like what are we doing with our lives? Where is our lives heading we are just trying not to die, we aren't really living" I say to make her understand what I'm talking about and she turns to me and lets out a sigh

"I don't know Reece, I don't know and to be honest I have been asking this question to myself a lot lately and I just can't seem to find an answer no matter how deep I went", She says clearly surprising me I knew she was deeply disturbed by all of this but I didn't think she was a deep thinker but again we don't have much to do and I think people question their existence when they don't do anything to make it worthwhile,

I look at her and I go "well I was thinking," she turns and looks to me with a little excitement in her eyes "what if we gathered a number of survivors and head to an island which is infection free this way we could be in a colony and be a lot more safer there than here" we have talked about being part of colony when we felt lonely but we always accepted that one wrong move and we'd be dead so we never really considered doing it but this was something different and risky, she cheers up but her smile fades a little but still holds on to her lips, "Well I don't know but that is a big responsibility Reece, one wrong move on our side and it's over and we'd also be guilty for the death of innocent people", "well yeah but.." as I was starting my reply a big deep spine shivering scream came from the woods it wasn't human like it sounded inhuman and as it shrieked again my blood went cold it was a Reaper in the woods.

Bringing back memories for both me and Zira