The Jimin Effect ✔

Part Two/Chapter Ten

Jungkook:

"Shit that was..." Jungkook tried to catch his breath, searching for the words.   "How are you a virgin?  Jesus Christ, Jimin." He rubbed his face, feeling shell shocked by the intensity of their sexual encounter.

"What?" 

Jungkook just sighed and laughed, out of words for how Jimin had controlled their lovemaking, demanding different positions like a spoiled child. 

And now he's YOUR spoiled child, your job to keep satisfied, by whatever means... and this thought contained too much anxiety, gripping Jungkook's heart like a fist.

He pulled the small one farther into his arms, Jimin wrapped arms around his neck and kissed him.  

"Jimin-ah..." Jungkook panted, still trying to catch his breath... suddenly it felt like hyperventilating, and he was hit with a million emotions, as if their sex had unleashed some box of feelings that Jungkook normally kept tightly latched.

"Jungkook-ah?" The boy replied with a teasing smirk, biting his lips, fingers at Jungkook's chin, and then, as he perceived Jungkook's emotions:  "Are you okay?"

"This feels crazy, out of control."  Jungkook was near tears.   "Like I've never looked at a camper romantically before, I've never had sex without a condom, I've never taken someone's virginity before... and the last time I dated a teenager, I was one..."

Jimin's eyebrows pulled together in concern. 

"I mean... do you regret any of those things?" Jimin asked nervously.

"No!"  Jungkook kissed him on the lips tenderly.  "No.   It just feels like the last two days that I don't even know myself, and it feels scary.   Love has never felt like this to me before!  I feel like if you told me to jump off a bridge, and bit your lip and said please, I would do it.  Like you literally make me crazy, you make me do stupid things like blow you in a public bathroom, Jimin!  Like it feels scary, and I don't know where this is headed, it feels like I'm riding a too fast train to places unknown and I'm waiting for us to derail or run out of track and it could happen any moment!"  Jungkook's voice became increasingly hysterical.

"Do you..." Jimin's lip trembled slightly, "...do you want me not to come tomorrow night?"

Jungkook watched this little passionate person he was so completely in love with, face uncertain and nervous, and Jungkook sighed and kissed him soundly.

"Of course I do."  Jungkook kissed him again, "of course I want you to."  He thought about how many panicked moments Jimin had caused him that day.  "But I don't want you cornering me in some semi-public place and making me blow you or talking dirty to me where someone might hear.   It's too risky, I don't want to lose this job..."  He met Jimin's eyes desperately, and the boy smiled at him compassionately.

"Okay Jungkook-ah, I will be a good boy, I promise." Jimin kissed him again.  Jungkook looked into his eyes and tried to trust, and hope, that everything would be okay.   But he didn't have a choice.  Ultimately, whatever Jimin decided is what would happen, because he had no ability to resist the wishes of his small boyfriend...and he sighed.  

I'm at the mercy of a horny, sneaky little teenager, Jungkook thought.  The feeling in his heart was desperate and crazy, but as his arms tightened around Jimin, the last thing he wanted was for it to stop.

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Author Note:

And Part Two is now complete, I hope you enjoyed this one!

By the way the qualities Jungkook describe here of feeling out of control and like he is making uncharacteristic choices is a symptom of a narcissitic/abusive partner and an obsessing/brainwashing/one sided form of love.

Jimin isn't quite a narcissist in this story, he is just immature and hormonal and new to relationships and sex and love and not very considerate of Jungkook. However if you ever find yourself feeling like someone else is controlling your choices or thoughts or who you are, consider that your partner/love interest/friend (can happen in platonic relationships too) may be a narcissist and that these can be concerning patterns, even if it feels like the most passionate love (or friendship) you have ever experienced. Sometimes things that feel addicting aren't actually good for you, you know? ((HUGS))

Hopefully Jungkook communicating about his feelings will be the beginning of them setting healthier boundaries in their relationship.

ANYWAY lollll

Why OF COURSE I am planning a part three! But no timeline on when to expect that.

Please keep this book in your libraries and look for the teaser for Part Three in the future!

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