wrong move

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SECRET NATALIE.

"kain na po kayo" saad ko sa mga workers habang inilalagay sa lamesa ang pinamili naming pagkain ni jungwon.

"salamat po ma'am, may date po kayo ni sir jungwon?" tanong sa akin nung isa, nahihiya akong tumango.

"bagay kayo ma'am, ang ganda nyo tapos ang pogi pa ni sir" they started to tease me so i felt a bit uncomfortable, mabuti na lang lumabas na si jungwon sa office nya at niyaya na ako.

"enjoy ho kayo, sir ma'am! salamat po sa pagkain"

"what are your plans?" i asked jungwon after i buckled my seatbelt. "mall? shopping, may iba ka pa bang kailangan sa condo mo?" napaisip ako sa tanong nya. i still need few things.

"yes, i still have to buy some things pa" 

"good, i also have to buy clothes, and then cinema after" he seems like he planned everything today so i just have to trust him. he started to drive on the way to the nearest mall.

"ilang babae na ang dinala mo sa date?" tinaasan ko sya ng kilay kahit hindi nakikita dahil busy sya sa pagd-drive. 

"two," he honestly answered. hindi man lang sya naubo, or kinabahan man lang. "two huh, sino?"

"one from college and then yung isa, old workmate ko, bakit?" he answered casually again.  napanguso ako, may iba na pala syang dinala sa date. so he wasn't really affected after i left huh.

i crossed my arms while i am looking sulky at the window beside me.

"you had girlfriends..." that should be a whisper but he heard it anyway. "flings, sena.. i.. thought they can be my coping mechanism but they are another pain in my ass" he scoffed. i doubt that. but i remained silent while i am still pouting.

"why are you being so sulky, i still love you... stop being so jealous" i throw a glare on him but he did just chuckled. "seriously sena, halos gawin kong magnus ang iceland dahil ilang beses na akong nagpabalik-balik doon" he stopped the car since it's red light. he looked at me and held my hand.

"what do you mean?"

"remember i told you, gusto kitang samahan, i want to feel that i never leave you after all the things that happened. i was there. i was there in your birthday for three years. i was there at your graduation. i was there during the opening of the secrets. i was there during  christmas, whenever you are watching the auroras.. i was there with you, even though you didn't know... i was there" i pursed my lips. i didn't know what to say.

"i have to fight the urge to wipe your tears whenever i saw you crying at the park.." he continued driving, nakatuon na sa daan ang tingin nya samantalang hindi ko maalis ang tingin ko sa kanya. i am still processing what he said.

"bakit hindi ka nagpakita.." ilang beses ko kaya hiniling na sana nandoon na lang din sya, kahit na ilang beses ko din binawi iyon.. alam ko naman sa sarili ko na gusto ko pa din. natatakot lang ako.

"i am afraid i might cause another pain in you, baka lalo ka lang umiyak.. i hate to see you crying you know." i remained silent after that.

nakarating na kami sa mall, naglunch muna kami sa italian restaurant. nagpareserve na si won dito kahapon pa daw. he ordered so many foods! i don't have a choice to finish my food dahil sayang naman.