✨L I F E G O E S O N✨

🎈Small agency🎈

12th February 2014

I was in the rest room. It was the only moment I was alone. We had only practiced the last few days. We hardly had a free minute. A few of our members had fight in the meantime. This was often due to stress. Gladly they solved the problem already.

Some of our members were just sitting in the mask. Getting their make up done. We attended to an award show. We were nominated for the 3rd Gaom Chart K-POP Awards "New artists of the year".

Today our 2nd mini album 'Skool Luv Affair' was also released. Featuring the songs Boy In Luv, Where You From, Cypher Pt. 2: Triptych, Spine Breaker and Tomorrow. There were other songs that belonged to this album but those weren't revealed yet.

Sejin: Yuyu? Are you ready?

Me: Yes. I will be out in a second.

Sejin: Okay. You have still 5 minutes.

Me: Okay.

Seconds later I left the restroom. I sat down next to Namjoon on the couch. He was on his phone.

While waiting for the other members, I played with the black tie-like cord around my neck. I wore a white blouse. This was little bit see through. I was so happy that I decided to wear a white bra today. I wore black shoes with small but thick heels and black jeans.

Since the pants were really tight my thin legs didn't go unnoticed. But I had to go through with it. I wasn't the only one who was that skinny. the other members were also pretty thin. Which is why we often wore baggy clothes in our concepts. Yoongi was particularly noticeable. He was also very thin.

However, I stood out because the guys had a different, more muscular, taller and more toned body than me for biological reasons. And I was also extra skinny.

We went out. To our place at the award show. A few celebrities had already taken their seats. And fans in the front rows were of course already there.

Girls Generation had won an award with the song 'I got a boy'. Then a few more groups performed.

In the end we won the award. I was incredibly happy about it and very thankful. But it made me upset that we weren't allowed to perform live this time.

Since we came from a small agency we got less time. which is why our performance had to be shortened. Some interviews were never uploaded because the interviewers didn't benefit from it. We weren't popular enough.

Many don't believe in us and said our group is just a temporary group anyway. We wouldn't exist long and we wouldn't get far.

We walked backstage. All of us were nothing but exhausted. Jin was on a diet. Some days ago Jin was told that he had gained some weight lately. He apologized and said since he gained weight, he could lose it.

In my opinion he was perfectly fine and good looking. But sometimes Idols had to go on diets. Jin wasn't the first. Jimin had a few visible muscular body parts. His legs in particular made this visible.

Fans called him fat or chubby. He wasn't. But since the fans weren't satisfied he had to lose some weight.

How? The idol decided that himself or herself. I am aware that this is not the case everywhere, but fortunately BigHit was really the perfect entertainment for us, which protects their artists.

I finished changing and sat down on the couch. Jungkook joined me. He looked kinda more pale than usually.

He was about to sit when he suddenly fainted. I hold him so that he wouldn't fall next to the couch but on it.

Me: Oh god Jungkook.

Immediately a few staff members came and took care of him.

Jimin: What happened?

Me: He fainted.

We drove home without Jungkook. Sejin later took him back home to the dorm.