✓Just One Time|| A. Agreste

Chapter Twenty-two

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People have different ways to cope up with break up.
Some even pretend that nothing happened but at the comfort of their abode, would still cry.
Technically, no one is not really emotionless. Sometimes, they just experience everything, got tired and finally didn't care anymore. Some on the other hand, cry their grief then either die while doing so, or find their resolve and move on.

Nonetheless, people although it hurts shouldn't succumb to self pity, because people have their on purpose, just like you.

Although you might think that you're useless, other people----clearly somewhere out there says otherwise.
So crying wouldn't really help, sure it might ease the pain, but it won't change anything unless you do something.

That's what you felt at the moment, mind circling with thoughts, clashing choices, making it even more harder to determine what to do.

You also see the situation on different angle, and it would really help you— that is after you moved on. The gain of this break up was that, you'll have time for yourself, can finally solve your problems slowly without thinking of another but will you still feel the same way to him after everything ends?

What if you fall out of love?

What if he really fell for another person?

What if...

Just the thought made you frown, brows furrowing in discomfort imagining your future without him.

It is really scary when you imagined your future but ended up breaking.
Just the thought of the future you ambition without him was scary.
You were so use of him with you, and it's really hard when he's not.

It just proves that you'll really realize the importance of that person in your heart once you lose them.

       ---------“Are you feeling alright?” Adrien ask while looking at your eyes, bags under them. You two act casually, even have the relationship of a friend and it felt natural that way.

Since the two of you grow together, it would seem that you didn't really erase his existence in your heart, but just suppressed it and now that you finally made up, it seems that its resurfacing.

"Fine... Although it's really hard without him, i am starting to feel ok" Adrien didn't probe deeper and silently sat in silence while doing his homework, same as you.

Although you cry in your sleep, it didn't hurt as much as before once you really think of Luka's decision. It would do you good than bad, so you have come to accept it, despite it hard than what you have anticipated.

Of course it hurts.

Having a relationship for years, it would still stung and no matter how long it will be, you'll still be reminded of him(that is of course because Luka is not a scum, so he's worth remembering)

Adrien on the other hand got used to it. He may really love you, but his heart steeled at how you always forget about his feelings.
It was okay.

It's better that being ignored physically.

As long as he could stay with you, he would endure your love for Luka, he would silently be your shoulder to cry on, he would be your comfort, being with you, and loving you silently.

It's enough.

He understands that you cannot love him the same way as he loves you, he understands that you already have a person in your heart.

And he wouldn't change that, after trying for years, he now understands that Luka will always be your first.

Besides, how could he confess to you when he's one of the reason why you're living like this?