BEST FRIEND'S BROTHER || RM

17

As soon as I said that, Namjoon leaned forward, pulling me into his arms. I couldn't help but to melt into them, loving the warmth and comfort they gave me.

When I pulled back, Namjoon stared down at me with a warm smile on his face. "I'm glad you want to give this a shot. I really couldn't handle seeing you with that Hayden guy anymore, it was driving me nuts." He says as he makes a face.

"You don't have to worry about him, I told him I didn't like him like that." I say and instantly Namjoon seems to relax. "Good." He laughs as he leans back in his bed, raising his hands above his head which caused the hem of his shirt to rise, showing off his vline slightly.

My face heated as I averted my eyes. Of course he noticed as he let out a small laugh and pulled his shirt down. "Sorry, I forgot you're very innocent." He says and his words make me feel uncomfortable.

I had forgottent that he already knew that I was still a virgin and all of that. Of course that got me thinking...Now that we were dating he would likely be the one to take that away from me...The thought made my face heat even more.

"Don't worry, It's okay. I won't pressure you to do anything you don't want to do." He says as he glances over at me as if he had read my mind.

"I know it's just...Why would you want to be with someone who can't give you what you want? I feel bad." I say and Namjoon sits up with a serious look on his face.

"That's not all I care about, ya know. I'm perfectly happy waiting for you whenever you're ready." Namjoon says and my heart swoons.

"Good because I don't think I'll be ready anytime soon." I say and Namjoon nods. "Totally understandable and that's okay." He says as he reaches over and places his hand on mine.

"Does that go for kissing too?" He then asks, his eyes looking up to meet mine. I felt my cheeks heat at his words.

The thought of kissing Namjoon made my heart race and my palms sweat. I had imagined it a million times, but I never imagined I'd ever actually get the chance to do so.

"Um...no?" I say, my words coming out more as a question then an answer. I couldn't help it, I was definitely nervous at the thought of Namjoon wanting to kiss me. I had only ever kissed Hayden and that wasn't even much of a kiss. What if I embarrassed myself by not doing it right?

"If you don't want to it's okay." Namjoon says as he moves his hand off of mine. "It's not that I don't want to it's just that I don't want to mess it up...I don't really know how to." I say, my cheeks flushed at my words. Admitting it out loud was even more embarrassing.

"Don't worry, It's easy. As soon as you start it comes naturally, I promise." Namjoon smiles. Every part of me was screaming at me to do it but my nerves were holding me back.

"We don't have to, It's alright." Namjoon says after a moment. The look on his face was slightly sad but he was trying to hide it with a smile.

"No, I won't to." I say, avoiding eye contact. I felt my heart racing in my chest as Namjoon shifted on the bed, waiting for me.

As I turned my head up to face him, his eyes were already on me, trailing down to my lips. My stomach was turning in anticipation as I moved closer to him, his hands reaching out to bring my face closer.

Namjoon tilted his head to the side slightly before I shut my eyes, leaning into his hand that guided me to his lips.

The feeling of his soft lips pressing to mine gently made me melt into him, trying my best to move my lips along with his. I could feel myself messing up slightly, but he didn't say anything or pull away.

Namjoon was amazing at this and it made me feel bad that I wasn't. I was trying my best, but it felt impossible to keep up with him.

Luckily, Namjoon eventually pulled back from me, gently releasing my head from his hands. "I'm sorry, that was bad." I say, feeling embarrassed.

"No, it was okay. It takes practice, It's alright. I liked it." He says as he flashes me a warm smile. His words made me feel a little better.

"Are you sure you're not just saying that so I don't feel bad?" I say and Namjoon shakes his head. "Trust me, Y/N. I've wanted to do that for awhile now and it was amazing, don't worry."

I twiddled my fingers as I sat there, my mind racing. Although he had tried to reassure me I couldn't help but to think that he was just trying to spare my feelings.

"Practice makes perfect, right?" He grins at me and I look up at him and nod. "I guess that's true. I'll get better at it." I say and Namjoon grins.

"Well, I'm always down to help you practice." He says and my face burns at his words. I could only imagine all of the other things I would have to learn. I had an idea but of course I had never actually done anything with someone else so it would for sure be weird.

"It'll take some time, but I'll get better at it, I promise." I say as I glance down at my hands. I knew this would take some getting use to since I had never had an actual boyfriend before but for Namjoon, it would be worth it.

I had liked him for so damn long and I wasn't going to ruin it now. I would just have to practice and learn to get better at it. I'm sure it wouldn't take too long, I mean it isn't rocket science or anything.

When Namjoon spoke next, I felt the blush creep back to my cheeks as he said,

"Wanna practice some more?"