Arcane: Scenarios and Headcanons

how you're working through it but just silco

a/n why did i hurt myself like this

request from @FxckingChaotic thank you for inspiring this

SILCO

- you and Jinx are out on a mission when a gunfight breaks out

- although her reflexes are good, she gets overwhelmed and doesn't notice the gunner on her right

- but you do

- and you try your best to get both of you out of the way, but they get you in the abdomen

- Jinx carries you back to the bar, screaming and crying for someone to help

- and then Silco sees you, eyes shut and bleeding out and so, so still

- and for the first time in a long time, he's scared

- scared to lose you

- he runs you to the doctor to get you patched up

- Jinx does her best to explain what happened but can't, she's not in the right place

- Silco understands the gist of it

- he paces back and forth in the room as the doctor fixes you

- anytime you make a sound he's by your side, holding your hand and rubbing his thumb over your knuckles to soothe you

- once the surgery is done and he's sure you're okay, his mind starts to run

- how could this have happened? how can he stop it from happening again?

- he shouldn't have let you go, no, never let you go. maybe he should tuck you somewhere safe, somewhere no one can hurt you

- but then he looks over at you and knows he could never

- when you wake up a few days later, he doesn't smile, but he's holding your hand tightly

- you have a somber look, like you've done something you weren't supposed to

- "...is Jinx okay?"

- he's shocked that those were the first words out of your mouth

- what about you? why aren't you concerned for yourself?

- "she's fine," he says, then asks what happened

- when you explain, he's torn

- on one hand, he's so glad that Jinx wasn't hurt, she's a daughter to both of you, but on the other hand, you took a bullet for her

- why can't you cherish yourself?

- he looks at you, pale and weak, and wonders if you would be safe if it weren't for him

-if he gives it all up, would you and Jinx be safe? would his family be safe?

- you've been with him for so long you can tell what he's thinking

- "i'm fine Silco, i'm okay."

"don't lie to me."

  "but—"

  "you almost died today, how is that okay?"

  "but i didn't. and even if i was out for a while, Sevika and Jinx could handle things for—"

"i don't give a damn about that!"

- you're stunned into silence

- you know Silco loves you because he's kept you by his side all this time, but you always undervalued yourself

- told yourself you were replaceable so if one day he let go of you, it wouldn't hurt so bad

- but Silco has stubbornly held on, and now Jinx is attached to you too

- how cruel would it be if you left them first?

- after a long pause, he finally speaks

- "i need you to be okay."

"...okay," you whisper back, voice hoarse

"alright."

- he accepts your answer and gets up, moving his hand out of your grasp and up to your cheek, cupping it and leaning down

- kisses you on the lips, then leaves a fluttery light one on your eyelid, hand lingering before he pulls back and leaves the room

- you wish he could stay longer

- Jinx comes in to visit you later, and talks your ear off about Silco

- "he's a sap, he stayed awake every day and night you were out to make sure you were still breathing."

- you laugh with tears in your eyes, then hold her hand and ask what she did while you were recovering

- she lights up like a kid and rambles

- at some point Silco comes to take her away and as they leave, you think to yourself:

- this is all i need. just this. just them.

a/n and if i cried writing this whole chapter???

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