"Wait he's the friend you were crying about! Now I'm curious what the Fuck happened?" Frank said making me look up back at him.
"Wait" I muttered making both of them confused.
"You said he started... Dating?" I asked looking at Frank who gave a small nod,
"Yeah... He's dating a senior" Frank replied and I nodded back putting on a soft dejected smile.
"How is he? Does she treat him well? What's she like?" I asked trying my best not to completely lose my brain and start crying.
"Um she? Who?" Frank asked making me raise an eyebrow.
"Win's girlfriend" I replied while he looked back slightly awkwardly.
"Ah... You think he's dating a girl... Oh um it's uh not~"
"He's dating a guy!?" I asked with my eyes widened.
Wait did I have a chance back then?
No... Bright! just because he's dating a Guy doesn't make him gay. He could be bi pan or whatever don't just assume that just because girls in our school liked me he'd like me to!
I mean he knows me the most... With how I was... I most definitely didn't have a chance.
"Yah what's wrong with that?" Drake scolded while I shook my head,
"Nothing I'm... I'm just shocked" I said.
"Now will you start then?" Fank asked and i looked at him confused,
"Start what?" I asked.
"Your history with Win, I'm damn curious now!" Frank said and Drake nodded along.
"Me too I wanna know what made all of this such a mess" Drake said pointing all towards me while I nodded along.
"Hmm... Well" I muttered before taking a deep breath and starting from the top.
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"Oh you're such an ass" drake said and i nodded along.
"I know" I replied,
"Wait so... You messed up his relations because you were jealous and hurt that he didn't give you attention?" Frank said and I closed my eyes and gave a small nod.
"Umm" I replied.
"You're not qualified to be called best friend" he said and i looked away.
"Oh ouch Frank" drake said.
"What did I say wrong?" Frank asked.
"You didn't, but I do care about him" I said and Frank scoffed.
"Hah right you my guy cared about yourself not about Win not about that girl, just you. Do you have any clue how fucked up that is?" Frank said angrily making me sigh.
I can't even get mad because whatever he said is absolutely and a hundred percent true.
"I know..." I said looking down on th ground.
"That's enough Frank he's already suffering" Drake said.
"Argh he just pissed me off a lot" Frank said as he huffed,
"I get that Frank but you should understand Bright too"
"Understand him? What's there to understand here?"
"Just imagine only ever knowing and acknowledging that you're straight, and then suddenly you're faced with such strong confusing emotions that too from or towards your closest friends... That must be confusing" Drake said making me want to cry,
"Regardless Drake... Don't try and justify my behavior..." I said closing my eyes feeling so low, all the while Frank's simply huffed.
"So what now?" Drake asked, slightly nudging me making me look up,
"What do you mean?" I replied.
"You know where he is what are you going to do about it?" Drake asked making Frank look towards me in anticipation too.
I looked at both of them before placing a small smile on my face.
"Nothing" I replied making both of them gape.
"What the fuck did you just say?" Fank asked.
"You said it Frank he's doing good and even has a boyfriend I don't see why I would want to barge into his life again especially when what happened between us still fresh"
"So you're scared" drake said,
"What? What do you mean ?" I asked.
"You're afraid that he'll shund you further, you're Just happy that he's right here now so close to you" drake said,
"What's wrong with that? What's wrong with wanting to just look at him from afar"
"Bright if you really want him to forgive you then you have to start somewhere" Frank said and i sighed.
"I'm done guys... I don't want to talk about this anymore I'm heading out" I said standing up,
"Happy Birthday bro I'll see you tomorrow" I said to Drake before leaving.
He's happy... With someone, I- I can't just barge in hoping that he'd forgive me and take me back... I can't just mess with his college life.
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~three years later~
"Your just a creep now then?" Drake said while I continue to look towards the beautiful man.
"It's been three years man grow a pair already"
"Shut up drake let me concentrate" I said smiling while I saw Win talk with Frank.
Me and Drake are always in the economics department while I lurk around Drake accompanies me.
"If you love him that much then why in the world have you not said anything yet that man has been single for two years now too!" Drake said and I just shrugged.
"I don't know Drake... It feels like I'm still not worthy of him I've done too much"
"If you're worthy of him or not is not for you to decide I hope you know that"
"Just drop it Drake"
"Ah ah what's happening with your roommate? " He asked.
"Oh um idk he'll move in today"
"Did.. did you not check who it was?" Drake asked.
"Nope... But who cares I'm okay with anyone as long as they don't touch my stuff" I replied.
"Oh... Um so why don't we cut a few classes? So you can head home early to meet your roommate"
"Huh? Why? It's not like I want to be best buddies with my roomate why would I rush over?"
"Uh.. sti~"
*Ringgg*
"Aau the break is over... Time just flies when you're looking at something beautiful" I muttered before walking away from the eco department.
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