Only If She Knew✔️

chapter :27

Once they reached room Shehnaaz closed door and dragged Sidharth towards bed. She sat beside him holding his hand and asked as whisper

"Will you tell now?", Shehnaaz asked. Sidharth hummed and caressed Shehnaaz cheeks softly, he can't express how much he love her and missed her. He neatly lost her because he trusted a wrong person. He always thought that people keep thier promises but his belief broke down in pieces when he heard her father's reply.

He thought now him and his family will settle down there or here as per his family preference but marriage happened too early and in worst way which he never thought he would ever do. Even now he don't want to tell her anything but she and his mother are the only person's in front of whom he can cry.

"Do you remember how we used to think about our life after marriage? How crazy we were", Shehnaaz asked with a chuckle and laughed. Sidharth smiled as he remember each and every moment spent with her, he is glad that atleast even she remembers same

"How can I forget.. haha you said you will become heroine and will ask producer's to make your character as buisness woman", Sidharth told as he remembered thier conversation about marriage. They shared many memories with eachother which were previous. For him those will remain best memories and for Shehnaaz everything which is related to him is beautiful. She was always worried about him with belief that someday Sidharth will comeback but after miscarriage she herself don't know why she started to take everything in negative way

"Hmm I wish that was possible. If not me as heroine but atleast you as hero", Shehnaaz said and closed her eyes to control her tears. Whenever she think about his dream and reality, she feel guilty to be the reason. Sometimes she regret that she came and destroyed his life and dream completely. She knows very well how much Sidharth used to love his dream, if she knew he was going to take this step , she would have stopped him as nothing was important than his dream for her

"I don't know how but try to act somewhere. And for me you are my hero ", Shehnaaz said and hugged him to gain strength. She can't believe she is married with him now. When he left she lost hopes that he will comeback. Everyday evryone forced her to realise she made a mistake by loving someone and trusting someone. She never thought that she will feel this after loving someone. For her Sidharth was best of all which proved to be wrong.

"That I am for many girls", Sidharth teased. Shehnaaz slapped him lightly on his shoulder and glared him angrily

"I will see who will lay their eyes on you after knowing that this person is already married", Shehnaaz told with anger and jealousy. She never liked when in college Sidharth used to get proposal. If not her trust towards Sidharth then she would have broken Sidharth face a long ago. She used to love when Sidharth used to tell her about every proposal even if he knew he need to handle her anger .

That time Shehnaaz herself used to start talking with him without showing attitude much because she knew he was not at fault. He was good looking but he never used his good looks to impress girls. That was the reason even she used to tell him same and even Sidharth used to react same way

"That I am but still marriage will not make any difference. I will still look good", Sidharth told. Shehnaaz chuckled and pulled his cheeks

"Yes that's true. Now enough of our boring talks tell me", Shehnaaz asked . Sidharth looked here and there knowing what her question is

"Th...these talks are not boring", Sidharth stammered when Shehnaaz showed her hand

"I will not force you", Shehnaaz said and stand up to arrange bed but he pulled her back. In result Shehnaaz fell upon him, she held his shoulder from one hand and another hand clutched bedsheet tightly

"After your father challenged me I set my aim to get you by showing him that I am not useless. When I reached abroad with my family I was confused as their everything was different. Like here we can see grass, hills , everything green but not there. I felt suffocated there as I was talkative person who never spend a day without talking with you from the time we started dating eachother and started to cry in front of mom", Sidharth told and pulled her in his lap but Shehnaaz stand up and helped him to lay on bed properly. She don't want to stay upon him for long knowing about her weight. She sat beside him and placed her head on his heart. Sidharth encircled his arm around her shoulder and pulled blanket over themselves.

"That was worst Shehnaaz. There nobody bothers what you feel and who you are. They don't even care who their neighbour is. Initially with mom and dad I didn't found much difficulty in managing but after they left I felt difficulty to manage everywhere. Even if it to buy something for myself as their food was different as compared with our

Our food is delicious but that food looked like I was eating something without salt . Just tasteless", Sidharth told and looked in Shehnaaz eyes to find her eyes getting watery. He know the reason, he don't feel anything while remembering past much as with time everything changed and he learnt how to manage

"Baby don't cry. Otherwise I will not tell you", Sidharth said. Shehnaaz wiped her tears and looked at him curiously. She don't need words to express that she want to hear about his past as well when she know their heart and souls are connected from years. Even if that symbol is not here she believe somewhere her child is still alive through surrogacy picture

"Everytime whenever I used to feel sad I used to remember us and time spent with my family. Especially aim that why I am here. I told myself that only few days left and used to extent days as one can't gain success in a minute

Especially not a guy like me who never opened books till exams. I was totally blank when I read books. I knew nothing. I started reading books to divert myself and after 6 months of studing buisness books again I started to apply job but that was not easy because they needed experienced persons and my marks were also less", Sidharth said and looked down

"I told you to concentrate everytime but who will listen to me", Shehnaaz said angrily

"That is past Shehnaaz. Hope you remember table flipped now", Sidharth said

"But not my determination", Shehnaaz told and gestured him to continue. She know it is difficult for him to tell everything but it is important as if he will not speak his heart , he can't come back to his old carefree attitude. She never thought that he will change into this personality who don't talk much.

Sidharth looked at her and nodded. He don't know why but while remembering past he is now feeling difficult to tell her same. He thought he least bother about past as he forgot everything but now he realised that everything, even his wounds are still fresh. Especially one wound of his incomplete dream
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