~LIVING FOR YOU~

Chapter 14: Sincerely Sorry

                                      ~Zane~
Before the bookstore event:
Back at Zane's penthouse the day after his mental breakdown:

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I wake up the next morning on the wall of my living room floor.

After having a complete mental breakdown from yesterdays events; I ending up blacking out on the wall of my living room.

I know, hot right

I blink and rub my eyes a few times to get my eyes used to the amount of bright light I'm facing since I'm slouching right in front of my huge ass window.

Normally I love my morning view of Toronto, but today I want nothing to do with this city.

All I wanna do is go back to the times where everything was normal; no pain, no drama, nothing that made me hate my so called "father". Just pure memories of when I was having fun with someone that will always be a hero to me, even if they left

They left, left me in the hell of a world

They left and didn't think of me

The left and only thought of themselves

I shake my head to stop myself from thinking these horrible thoughts.

They did the best they could with the situation they were put in.

I look around my apartment, still in the floor, and see the mess I now have to clean.

Papers on the floor. The once perfect flowers and a vase shattered in the floor, dispersed around the couch, rug, and island in my kitchen. The television remote broken into pieces just like my heart.

I sigh and drop my head, holding the palms of my hands to my eyes and head since the headache from crying is thundering against my head.

I slowly start to stand up because if I stand up to quickly all I'm going to achieve is a tornado of and eye sight.

You know when you have iron deficiency, yea that

I stand up and start walking to pick up the television remote objects that are littered in my floor. After finishing picking up the big pieces I can with my hands, I move to the flower and vase. I'm crushed that a perfect flower is ruined because of me

I'll ruin her too, just like I ruined this flower

I quickly shake that thought out of my head and start picking up the vase pieces, making sure that I don't poke myself with the sharp edges, but honestly, I don't mind some blood leaking out of me, even if it's little

As I'm about to pick up my paper I throw, my eye catches a paper with the title "Toronto Vet Institution" on it

I almost forgot

Bear my dog is at the vet getting a check up since he was feeling under the weather.  He was throwing up, not having any energy at all throughout this week so I decided to take him to the vet.

The doctor said that they were going to keep him overnight since they want to monitor him through the night and see what he does when everyone is asleep

I have to pick him up today at 5:00pm.  I can't believe I didn't notice that he wasn't here. Don't get me wrong, I love Bear till the day I die but I'm was so in my head that I didn't notice he wasn't here.