athena pov
tw: weed, alcohol, and drunk athena<33(again ikr, enjoy these drunk and high scenes bro)
"bye! bye guys!" i smiled at sapnap and clay before walking out the front door.
i decided to explore for a bit. i hadn't really been around the place we were staying much.
i put my airpods in and turned left towards the woods.
"really? this song?" i whispered as the song 'this is home' by cavetown played in my head.
sad song. sad, sad song.
time skip
i hummed the tune of 'juliet' as the lyrics rang in my ears.
i hope that she, looks at me
and thinks shit he is so pretty
something i can't believe.
i was currently lay down on a thick tree branch in the middle of the woods. thinking. thinking ,thinking ,thinking.
i don't know what i was thinking actually. telling ranboo to go back to the way we were. ive wanted nothing but to be more than his friend for so long now, why did i fucking pussy out?
maybe i should just get drunk again and fess up. again.
honestly it doesn't seem like the worst idea...
no. if i get drunk i'll do it because i want to. not at the slight chance that maybe i'll confess too ranboo.
again.
i made my way off the tree branch and began walking back.
fucks sake.
do i have any weed left?
i really need some weed right about now.
i was about 10 minutes away from the... weirdly ginormous 'house' i was staying in, and then the song switched to 'medicine' by daughter.
honestly i do not remember putting this song in my playlist but it makes me cry every goddamn time. now i definitely need weed.
you've got a warm heart
you've got a beautiful brain, but it's disintegrating
from all the medicine.
was i crying? yes. for a validated reason though. this song is a different type of sad.
just as i thought it couldn't get worse, 'war of hearts' by ruelle began playing.
could there be a more relatable song??
i cant help but love you
even though i try not to
this is so dumb.
i sighed as i reached the door, wiping my eyes and turning off my music. spotify is supposed to be my therapy. not the fucking opposite. when i payed for spotify premium this is not what i should be getting.
i walked through the hallway and into the front room and sat down on the couch. next to ranboo.
honestly i did not think this through. ranboo and i haven't had a proper conversation since the other day.
i sniffled quietly as i pretended to be scrolling through instagram.
whenever i'm around him it's like i'm consumed by his presence. i genuinely just can't focus around him anymore.
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Fanfiction"these lyrics are relatable" "shut up, you hopeless romantic" this fanfiction contains sensitive content and serious topics, so just a warning. ranboo x fem!oc (romantic, no smut, ranboo is a minor!) • athena johnson , 17 year old, known as athenasw...