Izara Maeve De Santis was the light of her family laughs and smiles were brought on their faces, until little Izara was taken away from her family by her mother's sister that she knew little about since she was just a young-len, leaving her with abu...
I woke up to myself, drenched in my sweat and my breathing getting heavy, I closed my eyes, putting my hand over my chest. I hissed hardly, removing it and pulled my shirt down revealing a purple bruise that Michael gave me last night for coming home late last night but that didn't help looking at it, it became harder to breath
Come on, breath. Just breath
⚠️TW- PA⚠️ Instead of calming down, it was getting eve harder to breathe
No. No. No
I get up off my mattress because the room felt stuffy like the walls where closing in, I ran into the corner of my room with my knees to my chest, my vision gets blurry with tears but my breathing stays the same. I have rarely has these types of panic attacks. I would call it a massive panic attack
Yeah. Yeah. Yeah
I know stupid name for a panic attack, but hey, tell that to my 9 year old self. When I had my very first massive panic attack, my neighbor, Katie, was there at our front door when she needed randomly needed ground sugar for her cake she was baking. It was so hard to calm down once I made it to the hospital they took me immediately, bringing me to a room, and I couldn't control my breathing, so they had to put a tube in my mouth
I closed my eyes and thought about the tube in my mouth. It was the worst thing to think about because that was my critical time, but it helped. All I could hear was the tube pressing air into my lungs the way it sound, it was helping but felt peaceful ⚠️TW- PA: FINISHED⚠️
After about a minute or 2, my breathing calms down, and my tears stop. I get up slowly, holding into the wall, and I carefully make my way to the bathroom. I turned the hot shower and started taking my clothes off. I got in under the shower head with warm water running down head to toe
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I was now 4 hours late for school, I practically stayed in my world when I got under that warm good thing I had an outfit already out for me
Her outfit:
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But wasn't a good thing for me that I had to walk 30 minutes to get to school, when I walked in the front in trance of school hanging onto the wall it nearly felt like I was about to past out
I stood up straight, straightening up my clothes and walking to my locker pretending like I'm not 4 hours late for school
"Hey Izara,"
I flinched when I turned around, noticing Dante and the guys were behind me, scaring me
"Hey, why so jumpy?" Vincent asked
"You guys scared me. I didn't notice you were behind me," I said, turning back around and grabbing my books
"Right, but why are you 4 hours late to school?" Dante asked
"I overslept,"
Which wasn't truly the truth, I could have gotten to school early, but I chose not to
"Where you crying?" Dante questioned
"N-no, I wasn't," I said, avoiding all their eyes
"Then why -"
I cut Dante off, "Look I got to get to class."
"I'll walk with you,"
"No, I'm fine," I said, closing my locker and walking away from them
I knew the guys knew I was lying, but I don't think I was there with them yet to tell them about my life. My trust issues were a little on edge. They all seem like good guys, but I don't want to put them completely in my life, and it all comes crashing down. It all may seem sad and terrible, but people actually pity and judge you for it. I didn't need that right now
I walked into my third hour class and sat to the back. Today, I didn't feel like working. I know I come to work and get an education, but I was very exhausted, and skipping didn't seem like a good idea since I missed my four first periods, I didn't need them calling Michael. I took out my notebook and pencil and went into my own little world
When times like this I don't really pay attention to the world or literally anything, I go into my quiet headspace to where it's not torturing or taunting me every second of the day it's some days I can go without a problem
"Ms. Pierce, can you please tell me what's the answer to this question is?" Mr. Cormier asked
If a x b = 2a - 3b + ab, then 3 x 5 + 5 x 3 is equal to?
"The answer is 22, sir," I said confidently
He picked up a paper that was sitting on his desk, which I'm guessing was the answer sheet. He looked over it and put the paper back down. Writing another problem, he turned back to the class
"That's correct, but next time, pay attention just like the others Ms. Pierce, " He said
I sighed and nodded my head, I just wanted this day to be over
Hi loves, more chapters are coming soon. I'll try to update two at the same time. Hopefully, they will be longer. Hope you are having an awesome day/night/afternoon. Love you all
Also, please correct me about the panic attack part. I know nothing about panic attacks. I have had anxiety attacks, but I do not know if that's similar or not. I'm sorry if this offends you for people who does and if you do, I hope things get better <3
