Old friend, new lover

Chapter 4

Old Friend, New Lover:

You put down the piece of cake that was in your hand before you burst the crumbs from your lap, then fold your hands in your lap, keeping your eyes on your hands as you sadly say "my father was also killed in the war against the burned ones" you hear Farah let out a little gasp, you don't turn your face to look at her as you cannot bare to see the look on her face, after what feels like a lifetime those it must of only been a moment before Farah reach over and laid her hand on top of yours

"I'm so sorry Y/N" Farah says as she entangled her fingers with yours, "we both lost so much in the war just like a lot of people, those at least you still have your mother" Farah says, and you know it was supposed to be a comfort to you and that she meant no harm, since she had lost both her parents.

"It felt like I had lost my mum as well, you see after my father was killed my mum when into a very deep depression, she wasn't herself she didn't eat or drink, won't speak a since word, she finally came around slowly those she was never really herself again after my father death" you tell Farah, as you finally force yourself to meet her eyes, only to been met with sad eyes with tears in them, you could see in her eyes an unspoken question, even as children you were always able to know what was going through Farah beautiful mind, you was glad that hadn't changed in all your years apart, so you answer her unspoken question "yes that while I never came to school here at Alfea because I needed to be close to my mum" You explain to her as you get a small smile from Farah as she reached up and very lovely touched your cheek

"i wish I have been there for you, we both have been throught so much" Farah says pulling you into yeah another hug, you hug her back and start to rub her back tenderly, after a moment or two Farah pulled back and touched you face lightly making your heart skip a beat, you are not sure what is happning right now! So you place you hand over her's gently before lowing your hands onto your lap and began to lightly massage the back of her hand making circles

"i am so sorry that I broke my promise to you Farah"  You tell her looking at your jointed hands

"what promise?" Farah asked you, making you giggle a little looking up at her as you raise an eyebrow at her, "Oh" Farah says as a light buld when off

"did you hate me? Because I hated that I could never join you here at Alfea, I just needed to be close to mum" You tell Farah looking always from her hating the idea that she might of hated you, Farah took your face gently in her hands, making you look at her

"i never hated you y/n, i knew in my heart" Farah says as she let go of one of your hands and places it on her chest "there would have been a reason why you never came back to Alfea, back to me, at first I thought something might of happened to you, so I asked Rosalind to help me to find out what happened to you and she found out for me that you had enrolled at Eraklyon school" Farah tells you then she when silent as if in deep thought, you wasn't sure what to do or what to say so you just wait for Farah to come back from where-ever she was, "those she never told me about your mum and I know she would of learn that was the reason you stayed at Eraklyon" Farah says with a Flash of anger.

"Farah? Are you alright?" You ask her a little concern as to what just happened

"yes, I am sorry, what was we talking about?" Farah asked you as she lower her hand down from her chest, taking your hand back in her

"that you didn't hate me for not coming back to alfea" you pause for a moment as you look at you joining hands before adding, wanting to ask about Rosalind but decided it was for the best not to ask, if Farah wanted to tell you then she would when she was ready "back to you" you don't look back up at her, so Farah takens your chin, lifing you face so your eyes meet hers and you see a softly in them as she leaned in closer to you

"you did come back to me, you are here" Farah says as she rested her forehead on yours

"i could of come back to you a lot sooner, it was just...." you couldn't finish your sentence, no matter how hard you try you just couldn't get the words out
 

"i understand why you didn't come back, when I first sent you that letter" Farah tells you, you pulled back from her to look her in the eys as you ask

"you do? Because I really wanted to accept your job offer the first time and even time after that" you tell her feeling guilty "but I couldn't, as much as I wanted to" you wasn't sure how to tell her as that was a whole conversation you wasn't ready to have with her yet! Or even.

"because you were engaged to be married?" Farah asked you, and you was taken aback by her question

"how did you?..." you asked her as you searched her face for; your not really sure what for, disappoint maybe happiness for you, there was nothing, her face was unreadable, thoes this was something you really didn't want to talk about, so you decided to keep it short amd sweet "yes I was engaged to be married and now im not, so more cake?" you say picking up the piece of cake you hadn't finished, Farah doesn't say anything as she can sense you don't want to talk about it, so she just pours you both some more tea.

You both sit in an awkward silence, until you couldn't sand it any longer "what ever happened to that cat we rescue?" you asks drinking more tea

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