𝗔𝗱𝗱𝗶𝗰𝘁𝗲𝗱 -𝖢𝗁𝗈𝗂 𝖲𝖺𝗇-

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Another week later, week of staying at home, doing chores and taking care of two children, I couldn't say I wasn't exhausted

Constant crying, being awake almost whole night, nursing her, changing her, I've realized the heaviness of being a mother

Hongjoong returned home and today,on advice of Dohyun we decided to go to pediatrician. Just to check on their health and everything. I agreed because Yeon was close to being a month old

Chanwoo tapped crusts off his cigarette as he watched me holding Yeon and nursing her

"You look like you've been hit by a train"

I chuckled tiredly "Really? I can barely look at myself in the morning"

"Look"he pulled a smoke,squinting his eyes as smoke fled in front of him "I can offer you a help. I can find best-"

"No Chanwoo"I cut him off "I...I can do this by myself. I need to"

"But you're suffering this way. You're falling apart"

"And I will continue. I will survive. This is what to be a mother is like. I'm getting used to it,I can do this. I appreciate your help"

"Alright. However you want. I'll be in garage waiting"I nodded

Minhyun ran up to me "Yeonnie"he cooed,petting her cheek with his finger "Aunt Byeol,you look tired"

I pet his hair "I am. But don't worry,I'll be fine. Go get ready"

"I-I think Minhyun is already secured. I mean..with his health care and those stuff"Hongjoong spoke up

He was curled up on couch covered in blanket. I put Yeon in her trolley and gave her toy Wooyoung got her

Dohyun came up and stood next to me,shortly smiling at Yeon. Hongjoong was still bit weak from the accident and dizzy from the painkillers he was given

But it didn't stop him from helping me around the house

In fact,he said it's useful to him to keep up with all lost time he had and take care of us. Despise me telling him he should rest as doctor told him

"He's very stubborn"Minhyun told me yesterday while we were hanging clothes outside "I also told him he should rest and I would even want to bring him breakfast, but he always refuses.

That hurt me. I'm his son,I want to take care of him like he takes care of me"

"Minhyun"I looked at him "He..he wants to take care of you. Because he didn't get a chance to"

"I know that"he said "Mum didn't tell him about me. She left me alone. Dad didn't have a chance to know about me. Why? Why was she afraid?"

"Everyone has their own reasons for the actions. Sometimes it's for the better, sometimes not. In your case-"

"It's not. She left me because she was scared what dad will say. Dad loved her,a lot. He told me that"

"Are you mad at her?"I put a shirt on knit that went all the way from house wall to the tree at other end of yard

"Kinda. I know I shouldn't blame her, it's what she did not dad. Dad missed on my life, she missed on my life"

Tears filled his eyes "Hey don't cry. Now you have a family. You have dad,you have me and Yeonnie,you have so many uncles..You're not alone"