Staring at the ceiling,
Wondering where I went wrong.
Wondering when it was
That I let my heart decide?
Wondering how I reached here.
How I became this.
This broken shell
Of utter disappointment.
This drenched human
That gives rise to absolute disgust.
I'm laying on my bed,
Staring at the ceiling,
Wondering when I let my pretty smile
Get turned into hateful glares?
Wondering how I let myself
Get so absorbed in my pain
I've hurt everyone else.
I've become the one thing
I told myself I wouldn't let anyone see.
I've become sad
And, I've shown everyone
That I'm too tired to fix it.
I've let my walls down
And, they've come in to break me.
So, as I lay on my bed
And stare at the white ceiling
I wonder how is it
That they don't see
How utterly shattered I already am.
Cause they've got their hammers ready
And their muscles oiled.
They've got cuss words on their tongues
And, disgust written all over their face.
But, they've never stopped to look,
To see how tired I really am.
Tired of blocking out their nose,
Tired of smiling through the blows.
Tired of saying I'm fine
As I turn black and blue.
My thoughts,
They don't stop for a minute
They just hit and hit
As soon as my wall's down.
And, can you blame me
For not having the strength
To keep my walls up while I'm alone?
Cause I'm alone, now.
Laying on my bed
And, staring at the dull ceiling over my head.
And, my thoughts won't leave me alone.
Not when the tears fall
And, not when the blood stains
The white sheets I lay upon.
Cause they've broken me
After they told me
I was completely wrecked.
They lied to me
And, told me I was utterly useless.
My thoughts have the hammer, now.
But, I've got no strength to fight back.
Cause the disgust that they feel?
I will forever be responsible for that.
They told me that.
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Fragments Of A Broken Mind
PoetryJust a collaboration of all my poetry. They're all pretty sad, though. So, if you're looking for something to cheer you up, this ain't it. Don't forget to leave your feedback :)) And vote, please. Helps me know you liked it. And I'm kinda insecure...