Typical Secrets

T W E N T Y - N I N E

The closure is a thing we all need, at some point. Even if we don't have to face it, we will have to admit it someday or sometime. This was our last day in France, we had a few hours till we had to start packing and then it was the airport.

Mrs. Dunn had texted me last night, saying that she wanted to talk to me. I didn't know what it was about, but if I had to guess, I would say Ryder.

So she told me that we could meet up in her bedroom, and that's what I did. It was bigger than ours, we could finally have some privacy too. It felt like she was always surrounded by all the boys around her, they were just a mess.

"I think you know why you're here. If you don't, I just want to hear how you're holding up." She said and flashed a smile, sitting down on the bed. I shrugged and sat down beside her.
"I feel so mixed up with feelings. I'm doing much better than the time I was crying but, I don't know what I'm doing or supposed to be doing." I sighed and laid down on my back.

"Have you decided whether you're going to forgive him or not?" She asked. I shook my head.

"I have the feeling that he kept me a secret as an advantage for himself. I don't want him to screw me over, but I'm scared he will if I forgive him." I told her and turned my head to her.

"That's where you have to think about it for a while. I think you should lay low, right now. Keep giving him the cold shoulder and just leave the whole relationship thing to itself right now. You need a break from all of this, don't you think so?" Mrs. Dunn asked.

"I'm just so tired of all these sudden changes and I want everything to go back to normal when we get home," I admitted.

"And is normal with or without Ryder in your life?" She questioned and raised an eyebrow.

"I don't know what I think, honestly," I responded and looked at the ceiling. I could hear her sigh, so I closed my eyes to try to get the disappointment out of my chest.

"All right. As I said, lay low. Let him come to you and see what he will do. If anything does happen, you can always text me. I'm going to be here for you whenever you need me to."

I sat up and put my arms around her, giving her a nice big bear hug. I loved her perfume, and I could always hear her heart whenever I hugged her. There was some comfort in it, that I couldn't understand.

"Right, you should get out with the girls and explore the last time. There's still a lot of time left until we have to get to the airport." She added to her sentence and gently used her hand to pat my back.

"Yeah. You're right." I replied and got up. I thanked her and then left because she was right. She knows best and has been through more than I have, so I have to trust her.

I know she's right anyway, it's just hard to believe. The whole situation between us is complicated enough already.
I knocked on the door but opened it before anyone could answer.

"Let's go out. I'm bored." I said before anyone got to say anything. Sophia looked at me confused, and Jasmine just agreed.

"This is the last memories we can make. Let's just do it!" I tried encouraging Sophia more.

"You don't want to go out?" I asked her. She hadn't told me anything, so I didn't understand what was going on between them.

"Of course I do, I just have a clothing crisis right now." She told me and sighed. I nodded and passed by her, looking through her side of the closet and then pulling a flowery dress out, and throwing it to her.

"I've decided that is what you're going to wear." I just picked something random, but it looked like she was considering it, so I didn't say more about it.