i couldn't face taylor after my conversation with Grace so i decided to just head back to my own dorm with caleb. the walk back to our room was somewhat silent but caleb tried his best to cheer me up. i stared at my feet with my hood over my head while we walked through the rain.a million thoughts were running through my head as caleb spoke. do i tell taylor what Grace said at all? do i sugarcoat it? do i actually break up with her to protect her? do we pretend to break up? nothing made sense in my mind and i ended up groaning out loud and rolling my eyes.
" i'm guessing you weren't listening to anything i was saying? " caleb said, turning his head to look at me. i pushed my hands into my pocket and remained silent.
caleb sighed and threw his head back. " finn dude, you cannot beat yourself up like this. "
" i don't know what to do. " i replied, my voice cracking. " i'm just stuck. "
" i promise you that we are all by your sides. you and taylor are not going through anything alone. " caleb said, trying his best to reassure me. " we're gonna figure something out. "
" i can't involve you guys into this drama. it's too much. " i stated, staring ahead. " i'll come up with something— "
before caleb could say anything gaten, joe, noah and jack appeared from thin air and began calling our names.
" finn! " gaten shouted, one of his hands were stuffed into the pocket of his green and black hoodie while the other one was waving in the air as we turned around.
" i ran into millie and she seemed pretty upset when i mentioned you, but she told me that you had to talk to us about something important. " gaten spoke, the distance between closing drastically.
soon we stood in front of each other and i explained what happened earlier to the four of my friends. a wave of anger appeared on gatens face, along with the rest of them.
" am i the only one who calls bullshit? " jack blurted, causing us to look at him.
" i can't take any chances jack. " i replied, running my hand over my face and taking a deep breath. " we start filming in a couple days and i don't wanna affect anyones acting or mood. "
everyone stood quiet for a minute. " i guess tell her after? we film for a couple weeks so maybe Grace might forget her little plan. "
" i don't know, i hope so. " i said, looking at noah doubtfully.
after talking for a few more minutes, we all ended up back at the dorms together and called it a day. once i reached my room, i closed my door and fell onto my bed.
***
9:57pm. i was startled out of my sleep as i felt my phone ringing right besides my head. i quickly lifted my head from my pillow and looked around my room in confusion, wondering when i fell asleep.
my senses found their way back to me and i eventually snapped my head towards my ringing phone and i felt my heart drop a little when i saw taylor calling me. my breath hitched as my fingers wrapped around my phone. soon, i heard the voice i'm in love with.
" finn? are you okay? i haven't heard from you all day. " taylor spoke, her voice anxious but soft.
i was silent, i simply didn't know what to say. i felt incredibly guilty speaking to her for some reason.
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crawl ( f.w )
Fanfiction" we can still touch the sky if we crawl, till we can walk again. then we'll run. until we're strong enough to jump. then we'll fly, until there is no wind. so let's crawl back to love. "