Barangay Series #2 : Evan Dos Santiago

Kabanata 2

Warning ⚠️: R18+ and harassment. I advice for the sensitive readers, please may skip this chapter and proceed to next. This chapter may be really disturbing and unwell. Read at your own risk.

"Are you avoing me?"

I asked Lazurus softly. After saying that the fixed marriage is fake, he walked back towards our couch. He didn't dare to talk, even though I'm just sitting beside him for almost thirty minutes.
 

 
"No," he answered me using his normal tone. "I was just shocked. I will never avoid you; when did I avoid you?" 
 

I slowly nod my head. Lazarus never avoids me. He was just going to be quiet for a minute and think about what he heard, but he was not going to avoid my presence. 
 

"Uhm," I gulped, "do we have a problem? Are you rejecting me?" 
 
 

I heard his heavy sigh before he finished his can of beer. He looks like he's having trouble speaking or saying something to me... 
 
 

I just told him that the marriage is fake, so he won't say that I'm cheating on Evan. I'm just assuring him that I'll never cheat. That... I love him without any issues. 
 

 
"Hara," he paused and looked at me, "yes, you aren't married, but people know that you are married." 

"Does that matter?" mahina kong tanong.

I immediately received a not on him, "of course. I don't want you to be bad from people's eye."

Mapait akong tumawa. He's always concern about my name. He want it clean, forever.

"We don't need the people's opinion, Lazarus. Don't you want us happy and in love? Oh, come on, stop protecting my name again..." I softly said to him.

He groaned and shook his head to me, "if you don't care about your name then I am." mariin niyang sabi.

I kept my sharp look at him. Nakipaglaban ng titig dito. He's too good to be mine. But too bad that I want so much.

"Give care at least on our friendship, Hara. Think about our future if ever we broke up. We'll be awkward for sure, our friendship will be broken until we became strangers. Do you want it?"

Umiling ako, "why? Will you avoid me someday if I became your ex?"

Kumunot ang noo niya, "what I mean is there is a half of a hundred percent that it'll happen in the future. Baka nga ikaw pa ang umiwas dahil sa hiwalayan. Think of our friendship that runs for almost a year, Hara. Save our friendship, your name, and your life." 

Tumayo na ako at naglakad ng ilang beses pabalik balik. Pilit pinapakalma ang sarili na magsabi ng masasamang bagay para lamang pumayag dito.

I never thought that he'll reject me after I clearly said that I am not married. I. Am. Not. Married! I hate it when he's always concern about my name and my life!

"Hara-"

"Y-you're rejecting me?" my voice trembled in pain. "Lazarus, you don't need to be concern about my name-" hindi ko na natapos ang pagsasalita ko nang tumulo na ang luha ko dahilan para mapaupo ako sa sofa.

Lazarus panicked and immediately confronted me. He hugged me and whispered, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, stop crying."

I'm not lying that I got hurt 'cause it's my first time getting rejected by him, my only love since I was a kid.