Alatus POV:
I stood there, sobbing in Barbatos' arms and wings for about an hour, and he just stood there and let me, it's surprising really, I would've thought he'd just leave after a while, but maybe he feels the same way about me as I feel about him
Then something hits me, he killed my mom, I shouldn't be forgiving him, no matter how much I love him
He did say it was an accident though, so maybe I should just forgive him, but he actually killed my mom
I don't know what to think about this, well, I need to know if he really loves me, if he doesn't, then it's probably best just to leave him while I can
"B...Barbatos" I say, fighting back tears that threaten to soak me
"Yes?" Barbatos asks, a small hint of pain in his voice
"Do... Do you love me?" I ask, looking up at him
"Of course I do" Barbatos replies, I'm glad he said that even if he's lying, I really love him and hearing him say he feels the same makes me feel really amazing
I smile lightly "thank you" I say, still holding back tears
"No need to thank me" he replies, his voice is so calming, even with that hint of pain I hear in it
I'm exhausted, anyone would be after bawling their eyes out for a whole hour
"You look tired... Morax destroyed my house though..." Barbatos says
"Oh" I say, I don't want to go back to my father right now, there's no doubt in my mind that he really wants to kill Barbatos now, so I want to be there as a sort of human shield, however, that would only work with the assumption that my father wouldn't kill me, even to kill his worst enemy, which is unlikely
At least I would die next to the man I love most, it wouldn't be a horrible death
"We can go to that glaze lily field we met each other in" I suggest, it would be nice to go there in memory of my mother since those were her favourite flowers
"Good idea" Barbatos says then teleports us there
I hope my dad can't find us here, but I'm too tired to really care right now, so I lay down and fall asleep almost instantly
Barbatos POV:
I watch as the Adeptus falls asleep so quickly, I begin to think of the events of the day, this was one of the most eventful days of my life, and that's saying something
I also think about how I told Alatus that I love him, is it true?
I look at him, sleeping soundly in the flowers, I definitely love the look of him, but that doesn't mean I love him
He forgave me for quite literally murdering his mother though, he would be so heartbroken if I didn't love him, and just the fact that I care if it would hurt him probably means that I love him, right?
I sigh and decide not to think about it right now, I lay next to him in the field of flowers, wrapping my arms around him
I keep my wings behind me though, it's not worth hurting myself when he's not even going to feel the comfort it would bring him if he were awake
I close my eyes, trying to fall asleep along with him, I am exhausted too after all, and if we both die here, so be it, at least we won't be alone in Celestia
I fall asleep after about half an hour, his warmth helping to comfort me
________________________________I wake up a few hours later and see that Alatus is still sleeping, the next thing I notice after that is that my back hurts like hell, I mean, obviously that would happen, I quite literally got stabbed in the back
Now that I think about it my whole body is kind of sore, but that could be because I'm sleeping on the ground, it could also be because I fought for my life only a few hours ago
Alatus turns over to face me in his sleep, I brush his hair out of his face gently the notice the tears that are under his eyes, he must be dreaming about his mother
I gently wipe his tears away, smiling sadly, I caused him this pain, accidentally, but still, I caused it, and I feel really bad about it
That's more proof that I love him right there, so I'm just going to accept that I love him at this point
Maybe I should ask him to be my boyfriend when he wakes up, that would either cheer him up or just make me look shallow
And he might not even accept since I just killed his mother, I mean, if someone killed my mother I definitely wouldn't date them, not that I have a mother but I can guess how he feels
I'm guessing a mother is someone you love and care for deeply, which is why I don't think it's right for him to date someone who killed his mother and only wanted to get close to him to take down his father anyway
I'm a horrible person, aren't I? I mean, I manipulated this young Adeptus into loving me so I could kill his father, then I accidentally killed his mother instead, who would ever want to be with someone like me?
I'm a monster
A/N: happy mothers day! Or for these two, happy no mothers day 😈
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DICONTINUED. Enemy (Xiaoven)
FanfictionArchon war AU angst and fluff Alatus (Xiao) is serving under his father, Morax, but with his father becoming more aggressive and controlling by the day, Alatus finds himself drifting away from him. He spends more time away from home, in his mother's...