Against All Odds

AAO | Moving Forward | 39

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Moving Forward
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"I can't change the past, I can only keep going forward wit the intent of making a change in the present for the future."
- Benjiman Cartier Gotti
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Sunday | December 8th

"So, what's been going on girl? You look good as ever by the way. I'm always here for the natural hair." Lira complimented Layton, as the two sat across from each other inside of Lira's classroom. The students were in their music period, so Lira had a free period to enjoy a quick Lunch that was sponsored by Layton for today.

"Thank you girl, I just got it trimmed up and blown out a couple days ago. Surprisingly its still holding on. You look good too, I'm loving the looks. You're glowing girl, I need that skin care routine." Layton admired Lira.

"Girl, life has been been going so well for me. Don and I are doing great, Jr is better than ever, I'm just happy. I literally have nothing I can complain to you about."

Layton smiled, it was good to hear that not everybody had constant trials and tribulations like her. "That's a blessing and great to hear. I'm happy that you're in the space to just bask in your happiness. It's an inspiration for me because my life is constantly all over the place.

"Awe Lay, what's going on?"

Layton sighed. That was a loaded question question for her, but she was happy to be in the presence of Lira for her to just let go and get great advice from a friend she knew would always have her best interest at heart.

"I'm just stuck in my thoughts girl. So Benji is moving to Miami first of the year, and he asked me to go with him. I don't know what to do. I love him so much and I can't see myself being here permanently without him, but at the same time I think moving in together might be pushing it for us. He's been through so much in the last month and it's been like a big road block for what we were trying to establish and work on to go forward with our relationship. Now that he's slowly starting to come out of this storm, he wants to go forward and I'm not sure if that's a good idea. At the same time, Benji is not okay. The more he tries to put on an act to me that he is, I know that he isn't. He needs me to be there for him and if I stay here then he'll be alone out there with nobody really for him. It's just confusing." She said.

"Layton, I understand why you're so confused. At the same time, you shouldn't just go with it if it's not what you want. Yes, you be more understanding because of his situation but it still doesnt mean you just allow him to make all of your decisions. Moving to a different city and state is huge, especially when you'll be all that you know going out there and that may not be healthy just yet. Spending too much time together may not be good with the state of the relationship. Now I am not saying don't go, because that's a decision only you can make. But I am saying take a moment and don't rush yourself with your decision. I say follow your heart in the end."

"If I did what my heart wanted me to do, I would move out there with him in the blink of a eye because I'd love to be out there with him. But, my minds telling me that we're not ready for that huge step in a relationship that we really don't even have. I just don't want to rush into things again, and we end up back in the same situation we started in. I want to get us right this time."

Lira went on to respond. "I understand both point of views honestly. BG has been through so much. Now in no way am I saying put him before yourself, because at the end of the day you have to do what is best for you. I will say this though, I feel like he has been through alot this past year and you are one good thing he needs. So I think it's only natural for him to want to take the one good thing he has out of the environment where he has lost nearly everything, including his own life. I get that from his standpoint, so it's really kinda complicated."