Brielle

forty-four

BRIELLE

*time skip, three months later*

The weather is getting warmer, it's still cold at times but it doesn't mean I have to wear a hundred odd layers.

It's the beginning of April, so summer is nearing, but it's spring. So it's that stupid, rainy cold season. But it can be pretty.

Luckily it didn't rain last night, so as me and Gray both sit on the grass. Our asses aren't getting soaking wet.

This is the first time I've been here with my boyfriend. The past three months he's come here a lot by himself, but last night was the first night he's offered for me to come with him.

He said Sof would want to meet me.

If you told me I'd be sat in front of Gray's little sisters grave a few months ago, I would have probably not believed you.

There's about fifty bouquets of flowers and toys by the grave, each time Gray comes he places new flowers and a new toy.

I can tell he's nervous, mostly because I'm here and talking to a dead person can be kind of scary and odd at times. But I'm here for him.

Intertwining our hands together, he grips onto my hand. And I lean my head on his shoulder, he sighs. Relaxing.

I get it's still hard for him, he misses her so much. It breaks my heart at times.

"I told you we were together Sof," He laughs, kissing my forehead as I smile. Sometimes he just sits here and doesn't say anything, but other times he pours his gut out to her.

We sit in silence as his fingers brush over my knuckles, backwards and forwards, making him feel better.

After he told me he talked to his dad, and we had the most mind blowing sex ever, he moved out of his mums house and back in with me.

He stays in my room every night, cuddling me and making love. We go between using condoms and not using one, I'm on the pill and taking it religiously so the likelihood of me getting pregnant is low.

But I won't doubt Graybear would be the happiest if I did end up pregnant.

I know he wants a bucket load of kids, and one day. Maybe when I'm not still in highschool we can have our first one, maybe.

We'll decide when we're both ready, well more me seeing as if I asked him to knock me up he'd do it within a second.

"I love you," I whisper into Gray's shoulder, I can basically sense him smiling. His hand grips mine tighter, but then loosens it after a minute.

"I love you too baby," Gray says, resting his head on mine. Letting out a deep sigh.

He told me what happened with his dad, how they had a conversation and he recorded it all. And then played it back to him, threatening to send it to all of his work departments.

Gray said he wouldn't, but I know he did. He was just bluffing to his dad, I watched him email it to all of the big guys in his dads office.

Word has it he's been fired, and several people have come out and apologised to both me and him personally on behalf of him, which was nice.

We sit in silence for a few minutes, the silence calming both me and him. But it stops when I go to speak to him.

"I bet she's so proud of you," I brush a curl out of his face, smiling at him as he watches me.

His face morphing into a smile as his eyes remain in contact with mine.

"So, so proud of you," I add, "So proud of how far you've come, and what you've turned out to be. Even though you can be a real ass sometimes."