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chapter five: jc pov

I sigh, hearing people talking upstairs, before I reopen the contacts app and click Dani's name then the call button before I can even think about it, staring down at it shocked.

"H-Hello? J... JC?..." I hear my little sister's voice stutter through the phone faintly from when my phone is in my hand in my lap, "A-Are you there? D-Did you mean to," Her voice gets quieter as I listen in confusion to the anxious, terrified sounding tone that's nearly making her unrecognizable, "c-call me? Um," I swallow, picking the phone up as I take a deep breath as quietly as possible,

"Hey, Dani," I smile softly as I hear her sharply breathe in,

"H-Hi, um, uhm, how, how are you? I guess? I, I m-mean I know you were drunk this m-morning, but I'm sure you feel better now right? I guess that's how drinking works?" She nervously rambles and I chuckle softly shaking my head,

"Yeah, I feel a lot better than I did Dani. Um, speaking of, this morning? You have anything you wanna say about that, or do I need to bring it up? Because it seems like you knew something I didn't earlier...Oh, oh no" I try to keep my voice as not intimidating or accusatory as possible but I can almost see her eyes snap wide open and I hear her swallow, before there's some shuffling ad she mutters but I ignore it, not sure what it means,

"I didn't even think you'd remember what I said after I heard you were drunk, J, you, you d-don't really need to wo-orry about it, a-at all," My heart hurts as I realize she did try to come to me last night, and this is her back tracking, "I um, I k-know you're busy and e-everything," I close my eyes,

"Dani, I'm your big brother, I'm never too busy for you. I've been busy, but that doesn't excuse me never speaking to you. Can we talk for a minute about what's going on? Franny and I found what you did, we all did. It's buried pretty deep, but it's there. They found you Dani," She sucks in a breath, a shaky one at that, so I try to finish my thought gently, "You were looking, weren't you? For a while." She stays silent for a minute but sighs,

"Yeah, I um, I w-was so nervous after that stream, I just, I got too comfortable and I just didn't feel good after JC, I knew this was going to happen, I knew it. I knew it," When she repeats herself, she gets quieter and I sigh,

"Well, yeah, I mean, Dani, we almost told them however long ago we did those team challenge videos while you were here, they were gonna find out you exist eventually," I try cushioning it, knowing it's not gonna work,

"They're so mad at you JC and at me and they're scary. And, to make things worse, it's all my fault because I've made you all do this, and now they're g-gonna go back through every video and figure out how often I used to visit and I c-can't, JC, this is s-so-o bad, I d-don't eve-en know wh-what to do-o," She anxiously starts falling apart and I hate so much that I'm this far away and can't do anything,

"Dani, Dani, listen to me, please," I stand up, messing with my hair kind of aggressively as I pace, "This is just a reaction from people who are overly attached to people, all of us, that they don't even know. They are such a small part of our fans that are just too obsessed, and it won't last forever at all. Okay? We care so much about you, so much more than the people behind those screens okay? So, can you breath for me," I hear her trying to control her breaths that were getting out of control for a second, "Good, Dani, okay? Everything is okay," She lets out one singular sob, and I clench my jaw, swallowing,

"They said they want me dead, JC, I saw it. They said I c-couldn't possibly be your real s-sister and if I was, then you clearly don't care about me enough to have me on your channel," I shake my head,

"Dani, that's not..." She quickly responds

"No, n-no, I know, I do, i-it's just scary, y'know, and I just I do-on't want to go outside b-because I feel like everyone is watching me, I m-mean I have f-for a wh-while, but th-this morning was so, so, so scary JC and I ca-can't do it. I can't." I hear her voice start to break and fade as she rambles, and I hate how clearly I can hear the fear in her voice. I turn around at a noise across the room, watching Jake, Tara, Reggie, and Cassie walk in, seeing the concerned looks on all of their faces. I wave, shaking my head and pointing at the phone. Tara nods, pushing Reggie and Jake towards the stairs while Cassie follows,