Shattered

Gone

I wake up to find that Gem isnt next to me . Where the hell could she be right now of all times.

I stand up and pad to the the bathroom and closet. When I dont find her, I head downstairs were I find Charlotte.

"Have you seen her?" I ask.

"Seen who bro?" She asks confused.

"Gemima, have you seen her?" I ask.

"Uh no, she was supposed to be in bed with you." She says and panick settles in me.

I run around the entire house looking for her. When I dont find her I run outside to look for her.

I grab my phone and I start ringing her number while at it.

She isnt picking up. What if they took her as well?

Oh no. Oh fuck no.

I get into my car and I drive around. Hoping I can find her anywhere. But the city is quiet today.

The rain falls on the curbs and doors are closed.

I walk into different cafe shops I know she could go. I look everywhere, even at the nearest complex malls. But nothing.

I ring her phone like a thousand more times.

The frustration causes tears to fall from my eyes.

"Gem!"

I walk back into the house to find Mom and Janice.

"Son, are you okay?" Mom asks.

"She's no where to be found." I sigh. Defeat, and weak.

"Charlotte went to report to the police"

I trudge upstairs.  My heart of all the organs feels the heaviest right now.

The house that used to be so bright when she was here looks so dull. I just stare blankly at everything.

I plop onto the bed and I sit there. Unaware to time until Charlotte asks me to have breakfast. I dont answer.

My mind is now swirling in the worst of places and the darkest parts of my mind are now open.

I've never felt do angry in my entire life.

Not when my mom left me, no. Not when my dad pushed me to be the best at everything I did, no. Not when he left me alone in this world, no.

Not when I found out that my dad's bestfriend is the guy who took my mother away from her family and continued to treat me like his own family, never.

But right now. When I find out that this woman that I'm insufferably in love with is no where to be found.  I am angry.

I am angry at the universe, I am angry at myself, I am angry at her! I'm just angry.

I sit on the bed trying to calm my heavily flaring nose.

When there's a knock on the door.

"Nate? It's me." Her voice says.

I dont say anything. Hoping that she'll leave.

"I know I'm the last person you want to talk to but please have something to eat." She says.

The voice that used to calm me when I was a kid now makes me rage.

I throw a lamp at the wall next to the door.

I can feel her flinching. And then she sobs.

"I'm really sorry Nate, honestly baby." She says before I hear her footsteps leave.