Debauched || Namjoon

Lunch.

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I aggressively stabbed my chopsticks into the piece of steak and moved it around.

"Tough day?" Mirae giggled while cutting her steak.

I sighed. "I'm good... I'm just a bit off today" I explained when pushing around my food that I hadn't yet taken a bite of. My eyes looked at the food as I pushed it around on my plate. I'm not hungry, food just hasn't been appetizing lately.

"You've been a bit off for this whole week.." She quips, a delicate laugh following as to keep the mood light.

A week has gone by so fast. I hadn't really noticed it because it just felt like yesterday since I had my heart broken. I honestly don't understand how I could fall so fast for him in such a short time but I did and now I just feel like my whole world has ended.

"Hey guys.." All of sudden I hear a familiar boisterous voice. My eyes follow the location of the obvious culprit, seeing Hosek and Yoongi walking together with their food.

My eyes flutter in unintended jealousy as I see Hoseok suddenly coming up behind and tackling her with a big hug. Dipping down he placed a little kiss on her cheek making her glow a soft pink as she giggled at the touch. "Hi, sweet baby" He cutely calls her when planting another kiss. There I was just staring at them like a lonely creep as they showed affection to one another.

"Get a room, we are still in school you know" I heard Yoongi as he took his seat next to me. Hoseok scoffs when pulling away to sit next to his girlfriend.

They literally haven't even been a couple for longer than three days.

"Hey guys.." I quietly greet the two. They both say hello back in unicent. Not knowing what else to say, I look down at my plate again. I continue to push around my food as if I was planning on eating anything when I knew, I wasn't.

"Are you ok to come tonight, Bora?" Yoongi asks, sounding a little concerned. I turn to him in slight confusion of the sudden question.

"...I'm fine" I paused as I internalized my lie. "I'm not gonna miss your party again, especially this one"

Yoongi was having a birthday party tonight. His birthday was actually on Sunday but his parents forced him to go to church every Sunday and birthdays weren't an exception, but tonight while they were out he decided to throw a party.

I look apologetic at Yoongi. "Hey don't worry about it, if you're not feeling good-"

"I promise you I'll be there" I quickly interrupted him.

I could see a faint little smile curling up on his lips as he heard I was definitely coming. It made me smile too. As much as I'm hurting right now, I just want to be there for my friend.

Maybe having some fun tonight will help me feel just a tiny bit better.

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"Okay, okay, one more, one more," Mirae insisted, handing me another coconut tequila shot.

"No, no, I've had enough," I protested.

"Just do the damn shot," Mirae demanded playfully, forcing it into my reluctant hand. I looked over at Yoongi who also had his shot. I sighed, forcing a small smile and pressed the glass to my lips, drinking the slightly bitter liquid.

Everyone surrounding us cheered loudly, making me wince. The loud music mixed with everyone on top of each other talking about absolutely nothing was just something to be desired.