"WE BROKE UP A FEW WEEKS AGO"
"Y/n, i'm sorry...I can't keep endangering you" was one thing he told me, after that it went downhill. I quickly looked up at him. "W-what do you mean?" I asked, my eyebrows furrowed. While i tried to make eye contact with him, he avoided it massively.
"HE TOLD ME IT WAS TO KEEP ME SAFE..."
"You do know i'm only doing this for your safety, right?" He asked, one hand cupping my cheek while he gently stroked it with his thumb. He wiped every tear that fell. "I...I don't wanna let you go like this, we can figure something out!" I insisted but knowing Ashtray, he wouldn't change his mind that easily.
"WE SAID A REALLY EMOTIONAL GOODBYE, ONLY TO OUR RELATIONSHIP WHICH WAS ONLY ON PAUSE THOUGH"
"I hate this..." i cried into his chest, Ash held me close and stroked my hair. "Me too...but i really want you to stay safe, you get me?" He mumbled back, burying his nose into my hair. I held him close and inhaled his scent. "I love you..please don't leave me" i sobbed and i felt his grip tighten. "I'll never leave you" he whispered back. He didn't say I love you back because he knew it would be harder for him.
"AND JUST LIKE THAT, IT ALL ENDED..."
Tears ran down my cheeks as i slowly walked up to the casket. I placed a rose on top of it, it was a white one because Ash liked them. He used to say they were unique. I placed my hand on top of the casket where Ashtrays body laid inside...i hated thinking about it. My boy was gone but...he died without knowing he was still my boy. I felt something touch my hand and turned, nobody was there.
"NO DOUBT HES STILL WITH ME THOUGH"
My frown turned into a small smile once I realised it could be Ashtray, my lip quivered as i wiped my tears. As Ashtray said, he wouldn't leave me. He always said that and even in death, it was true.
"JUST LIKE THAT...HE WAS GONE"
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includes: ashtray (euphoria) javon (the actor) stanley (the umbrella academy) he is a minor so no sexualising him or his characters please, thank you!!<3