Bᴀʙʏ Hᴏsᴇᴏᴋ °ˢᵒᵖᵉ°└ᵒⁿ ᵍᵒⁱⁿᵍ┐

Chapter 17

He couldn't feel it, his alpha felt humiliated and isolated himself from everything. He disappeared.

"Monnie you hardly even touched your food, is everything okay?" Her mother's voice filled the silence that formed at dinner and he tried to smile for her as he grabbed a piece of chicken and noodles between his chopsticks, then brought it to his lips.

"Yes mom.  Sorry, I was just thinking about things ... School stuff."

"Oh, okay sweetie.  Are you adjusting well to the new school?"

"Yes, everyone is very nice and the library is huge!" She smiled "I like it.  Also, I have Hobi to help me."

His mother smiled happily at him. "And have you already made friends?"

"I didn't give myself the time, really.  He handed it to me in the Library and ... " the memory of the Omega reached him and hi wolf only appeared to howl in pain. He sighed.

"Son, your scent is giving you away." The Omega sniffed the air, feeling suddenly anguished "You are very sad.  What happened?"

He pursed her lips and lowered his chopsticks.  Would he tell him?

"I m-met an Omega, mom," he admitted, putting his hand to his chest. "He's my mate. I felt it."

Quickly the woman got up from her seat and ran to hug her son with strength.

"But he, he rejected me and I ... I never thought it would hurt so much, mom. I can't help it" he sob.  Her mother let out a consoling squeak, holding him harder against her chest.  She wanted her puppy to hear her heartbeat.  That always calmed him when he woke up crying from nightmares when he was little.

"Oh, my puppy." She stroked his hair and kissed his forehead.  "Maybe, just wait and"

Namjoon frantically denied, "Look at me, Mom."  I'm not a good alpha. I was not born to do it.  I don't think I'm capable of loving someone ..."

"Why not, love? Maybe"

"How can I do it if I can't even love myself?"  The sob that this time tore from his throat, broke it. "I hate myself, I hate myself so much mom. I don't feel enough, for anyone. And it's so ... so hard.  I'm not like the rest of the alphas, I don't like violence, I don't like sports, not even the economy!  I am not strong, much less muscular.  I like to be quiet and not stand out.  Read, enjoy a sunny day.  I'm ... too weak to be an alpha. They all say."

"Well, whoever the person is who made you believe that.  Lie!" She was furious, she wanted to growl, bite each of the people who made her puppy feel bad "It's not all stereotypes, honey.  You are the dream alpha of any sane Omega in this world.  You are sweet, delicate and ..." she laughed a little, cradling her cheeks between her hands, wiping the tears with her thumbs "and also somewhat awkward. But you are beautiful, inside and out.  Look at those dimples that you load!"

Embarrassing laughter inevitably came from the alpha's lips, who tried to hide himself from seeing how flushed his cheeks were. His mother smiled too, but that smile left her lips and made her son look at her again.

"Never, I repeat, never. Let someone make you feel inadequate, okay?"  The alpha nodded. "I'm sure that Omega was just shocked, give him time.  Yes?"

She kissed his forehead and walked away to pick up the dishes. He tried to help her but the Omega refused, insisting that he go to his room to rest.

The next day he didn't feel better, hardly if he had the strength to get out of bed.  It was as if the full weight of his wolf didn't allow it.  He just wanted to keep sleeping.

His mother, totally worried, decided to go in and take his temperature with her hand.  Her son was flying with fever and sweat.

"Nam, son. How you feel? How do you feel about your wolf?"  she asked, shaking his shoulder a little to get his attention.

But Namjoon just seemed gone.

"No ... not me" Pause. "I can't be-feel it" he concluded in a thick voice.

And that was the alarm that activated his entire body.

She ran out of her son's room to go to hers and look for the corresponding documents, change her pajamas and finally her car keys.

She would take him to the hospital.

Hoseok  waited worriedly for his his cousin would appear from one of the corners, both had agreed from the first class day, wait to enter together to the Institute.  But he did not appear and always It was to warn when it would be increased at lessons.  In itself, it is already strange the fact that missing.

He moved his hands anxiously and made fists as the minutes passed.  There were only 15 minutes until check-in time and he still did not appear.  He wasn't answering calls either.

"Hoseokie!

The mobile in his hands almost fell to the ground in shock, but he managed to stop it just in time thanks to his reflections.  A nervous giggle was heard in the air, it was Taehyung.

"Sorry, I shouldn't have yelled".  He swayed sadly and a few seconds later Jimin appeared embracing the brunette around the waist, leaning his chin against his shoulder.  He greeted Hoseok with a slight nod and then a smile.

Yoongi and Jin were not long in showing up.

"How are you Hoseok? You look ... Somewhat worried" It was Yoongi who noticed the anguish that the omega seemed to carry, and who quickly did not hesitate to ask.

Hoseok set his gaze on Yoongi and for a few seconds he diverted them to Jin, who was looking at him somewhat sadly;  and, doubting whether to explain or not, he finally did.

"I'm worried about my ... My cousin. He should be here by now, I feel like ... Something bad happened, he doesn't answer my cell phone.:

Everyone made a slight grimace and fell silent, it was Jin who took a step forward and encouraged himself to speak.

"Did you try calling his m-mother?"

The omega nodded in a pouty nod.

"Yes, but it's off."

"Maybe I just know that"

A horn sounded just a few feet from them, surprising them.

They all turned quickly to look at the car that made it ring. Hoseok was relieved to recognize his aunt's car.  Apparently the omega had the day off and she decided to bring Namjoon.

But the relief left as quickly as it appeared when the woman rolled down the window and noticed that her eyes were watery.

"Hobi, honey.  Sorry to bother and worry you in this way, but can you tell your parents that I will go to the Central Hospital?  I forgot to charge my cell phone and Namjoon woke up with a high fever and ... I don't know what's wrong"

"S-sure aunt.  But let me go with-"

"No. You must stay and study. You cannot miss classes, we will notify you by messages of anything, yes?  Maybe it's not as bad as I think." The woman wanted to believe her own words.  "Please don't forget to let them know, I have to go. I love you, honey."

And before Hobi can tell her anything else, she hit the gas and left causing a loud screech that caught the attention of many.

Hobi was left with a bitter taste in his mouth as he sought contact with his mother and then explained the whole situation to her trying not to tremble.

Jin meanwhile began to blame himself for everything that was happening.