Surrender {AU}

~Twenty-Three~

As I stared at my suitcase that was packed full of my clothes all I could hear was his voice ringing through my head.

"Why are you always leaving me?"

My chest started to feel tight again as I looked around my room. I took a deep breath to try to get a grasp on my emotions but I knew it wasn't going to work. The memories played through my mind. Each one stabbing at my heart.

The tears burned hot in my eyes just before streaming my cheeks. Truthfully I didn't want to leave Hawkins behind. I didn't want to leave anyone behind but it hurts too much. Everytime I leave my house and go out looking around this town it breaks my heart. Going near star court all I think about is how I almost watched Billy die.

Everytime I go to the diner the compound of good and bad memories leaves me so conflicted my stomach churns. Everytime I see those familiar blue eyes my heart drops. I feel so stupid. I got my hopes up and he broke my heart a second time. All because he was scared to be alone.

"So you're really going?" His voice made me jump.

"Yeah," I replied softly.

"Why Liv? Why can't you just stay?" He begged and I turned to meet those big blue eyes.

He dropped to his knees and looked up at me taking my hands. His eyes pleading, brimming with tears. He took my hands in his.

"Because I can't Billy," I said as my voice cracked with a sob.

"Why?" He asked desperately pressing his forehead to my hands as he began to sob.

"It all hurts too much. To be here. To think about all the memories. To look at you. It just hurts," I exasperated as the tears just poured down my cheeks.

"Liv, please, this," he gestured to himself. "This is me begging you to stay. Even if it's just a couple more days."

"Billy," I pleaded and pulled my hands away covering my face sobbing harder.

"I don't want you to leave me again princess," he said softly as he grabbed my face giving me a soft smile through his tears. He then bit his quivering lip.

Hes never pleaded on his knees for me before. Everything about his stature was genuine. This wasn't just a ploy. I felt the weight on my chest get heavier I didnt know what to think.

"Please Liv," he begged again as he stood from the ground and slowly wrapped his arms around me.

As soon as I felt the warmth of his body and heard the beat of his heart I lost it. My legs went weak, I could no longer control my sobs.

"One w-week," I choked out through my sobs.

I felt some of the tension release from his stance when I said those words. He sighed with relief and kissed the top of my head.

"Thank you," he said softly and held me tighter.

A/n

Whaaaaaaat one more week for Billy to get it tf together 😏