Why tf does this have 92k reads... yall.
Ig y'all can get to know the old and new me.
When I started this I was 12 and in 6th grade. I found wattpad when I was 11 and just about to go into 6th grade. The thing that made me discover this god awful site was a country humans fanfic (I hate 11 year old me). I started this before covid in January (I think). At the time I was a hardcore fireafy shipper. At around 7k reads I met who would soon be my bestest friend ever. Dusty. They commented and followed. I followed back. Next thing you know I'm in a discord server with many others. The book starts to get big in my eyes at the time. 20k ish. At around 30k I said good bye to a close friend. 13th birthday comes around and I think this was at like 32k. I don't really remember.
2021 hits hard. My mental is absolute dog shit. Self harm and suicidal thoughts take me over. I begin posting less. And less. Slowly I'm falling away from the book.
2022 I'm still here. I want to write more for you all, but can't bare to write anymore oneshots. Everything is fine now mentally. I'm still friends with dusty. And the one shots book is at 92k and still growing.
I know that one day this book will get to 100k. Maybe a month from now, maybe a year from now. And maybe everyone will look me dead in the eyes and say.. "vex why the fuck did you write this?" And my answer will be, "I was a stupid kid who wanted to be big." And I know that 12 and 13 year old me would probably piss themselves selfs at what this has come to. Their shitty grammar, spelling mistakes, and lack of plot got big. Well, big for the fandom that this is.
And I, 15 year old pax look onto the future with hope. I want to be active again. I really do. Watching myself improve time after time will always be special to me. Reading the old shitty fics I wrote and laughing at every small detail will always stay with me. It's been a wild almost 3 years with this fic. And I do have to say its shaped me as a person. For the better or for the worst... we'll never be able to tell.
I am Vex. And you too have seen me grow.
