I could feel the nerves bundling in my chest as I parked my car in front of the restaurant.
I had been trying to convince myself that this wasn't a date but I knew it technically was.
I haven't been on a date or with anyone since..well since Colby.
I shook my head, not wanting to think of him.
When I got out of the car I made my way to the restaurant, only to see the cop from the other day standing there.
He actually looked really nice with his brown hair styled. He was wearing jeans and a dress shirt with a nice jacket.
"Hey! You look nice." He said as I walked up to him. "Thank you. You clean up nicely." I said with a smile.
"Thank you. Thank you. Ready for some dinner?" He asked as I nodded.
"Reservation for Octavia." The cop said as we walked up to the hostess stand.
"Follow me." The girl behind the counter said then led the way through the restaurant.
I found myself getting nervous because this looked like a pretty nice place.
I didn't like when people spent money on me but I especially hated really nice places.
I didn't belong in places like this.
"For you." The cop said and pulled my chair out for me. "Thanks." I said then sat down.
"So...do I get to know your name or should I just keep referring to you as the cop that pulled me over?" I asked as he sat down.
"I guess you can know my name since I know yours. Juliana." He said causing me to laugh.
"Call me Julia. Juliana is too formal, I feel like I'm being yelled at." I said as he nodded. "Julia..I'm Mike." He said and held his hand out.
"Michael." I said with a grin as I shook his hand. "Now I feel like I'm being yelled at." He said as the waiter came over and put some bread on our table.
"Hi guys, can I get you something to drink?" He asked as I nervously looked at the menu.
Jesus the prices were bad.
"Water please." I said quietly and looked at the waiter. "And for you, sir?" The guy asked, looking at Mike. "Water as well." He said causing the waiter to turn and walk away.
"So, how've you been?" Mike asked as I shrugged. "I keep myself busy." I said, not really knowing what to talk about.
It's been so long since I've done anything like this, that I didn't know how to keep a conversation flowing.
"That's good. You seem a little young to have four kids. Not judging at all but it caught me off guard." He said causing me to laugh.
"They're not mine. They're my siblings and I take care of them." I said with a sigh. "That must be hard considering their ages." He said as I nodded.
"They're good kids. They make it so easy." I said then looked at my hands.
I realized I was picking at my nails, pulling at the nail beds anxiously,
"I wish I had siblings, but nope. No kids either, although I want them one day." Mike said with a smile.
Usually I would think it would be weird to be talking about kids on the first date but I think it was sweet he was trying to relate.
"Maybe one day." I said feeling my heart sink, thinking about the baby I had lost.
"I didn't mean to upset you." Mike said after a couple seconds of silence.
