"So, there's nothing I can do." I said and pinched the bridge of my nose, leaning back in my chair.
"Sorry, Jules." Mike said quietly then wrapped his arm around my shoulder in an attempt to comfort me.
I had just explained to him my situation with the kids.
I only had three days to figure this all out so I was obviously very stressed. I still haven't told the kids but I was planning to tonight.
It was just so difficult to explain that mom was suing me and that they would be forced to live with her again.
They also probably wouldn't get to see me anymore.
"I just wish there was a way to prove she's abusive." I said with a sigh. "Once they are in her care maybe calling CPS could be helpful." He said as I nodded.
"If they let me call." I said then closed my eyes and sucked my lips in.
I felt myself getting too worked up again and I couldn't have another bad seizure like I did the other day.
"Hey, Jule?" Sam asked as he came into the room. "What's up?" I asked and painted a smile on my face.
"Can we make cookies?" He asked causing me to laugh. "Sure. Why not?" I asked and looked at Mike.
"Are you able to stay?" I asked as he shook his head.
"Gotta get back to work, but I expect cookies." He said then gave me a kiss.
"Have fun, kid." Mike said then ruffled Sam's hair before leaving.
"What makes you wanna make cookies?" I asked and stood up. "I don't know, I'm just bored." He said with a shrug.
"Hopefully we have the stuff. If not then we have to go to the store." I said and led the way to the kitchen.
"We don't have to do all that." Sam said as I shook my head.
"No, it'll be good for us to go out." I said with a smile.
"Can we afford it?" Sam asked as I turned and took his face in my hands. "You don't worry about that." I said then turned to look for the ingredients.
"Looks like we have to go to the store. Rally the troups." I said as he grinned.
"You got it, Jule." He said then left. I wrote down everything we needed then went to help Sam get the others.
"Sissy, what are we doing?" Juniper asked as I put her shoes on. "We're going to the store to get stuff to make cookies." I said as her face lit up.
"Cookies?!" She asked as I nodded. "Sam wants to make cookies so we're making cookies." I said then scooped her up.
"Can we afford to go to the store?" Jenna asked as I laughed.
"You guys have to stop worrying so much about money." I said then grabbed my keys. "We're worried because you work so hard." Carter said as I nodded.
"I know but I don't want you to worry." I said then opened the door. "Let's go." I said then led the way.
"Are you okay to drive?" Jenna asked as I nodded. "If I start to not feel good I'll pull over. It's just down the street." I said and walked to the car.
When we got to the store, I looked over at the kids. "Cookie stuff, and you each get to pick one thing. Whatever you want." I said as Carter looked at me with suspicion.
"Did you get a new job or something?" He asked as I shook my head. "No, I just want to treat you guys." I said with a small smile.
It broke my heart that they were suspicious of me right now because it made telling them what was up so much harder.
