I Dare You To Reject Me Mr Alpha

Chapter 19: Heat

Chapter 19: Heat

Quote of the chapter:-

"But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you, not even close.
Not even a little bit.
Not even at all"

~10 Things I Hate About You

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It had been a full day since I had left Colton. I had thought he would stop me but he didn't, I deserved this to be honest. I brought this upon myself.

The tears that kept dripping down my face wouldn't stop, I kept wiping my cheeks and trying to relax myself but I just couldn't. I had done this to myself.

Now Colton would never want me.

My body was aching and my heart hurting as I pulled my luggage along the street. People looked at me with weird expressions, some with pity and others with sheer disgust.

After all I was a teenage girl with drags on, messy hair and a tear streaked face, so I couldn't blame them. As I dragged my thing down the street I couldn't help but feeling guilty.

I felt guilty because I had put Colton through so much bullshit that he finally gave up on me.

I should be happy, he finally let me go, now no one would hurt his pack, but I couldn't help but feel an aching pain in my chest.

Is this what heartbreak is?

My heart felt like it had been torn out my chest and stomped on. My whole body was aching for him, for my mate. I wanted to feel his touch on me, I wanted to here his authoritative voice complain at me, I wanted to feel his lips on every inch on my body, I wanted to smell his strong woodsy smell.

But I'm so far from him now, I would never feel him again, never hear his voice again, or feel his lips on mine.

I had made this decision I have to live with it.

I didn't even know where to go, I don't know where Ash and Josh are, and I don't want to disturb Xavier. I have been a nuisance to him already, and I just couldn't bother him anymore.

I saw a cheap motel and decided to stay there temporarily, Colton had put a few dollar bills to get by in my handbag, although I had told him not to he scowled at me and threw the money in my purse leaving the house.

When I got in the motel I didn't realize I was still crying, whimpering, sobbing which caught the women behind the desks attention. She eyed me cautiously as I tried calming myself, but the more I tried to control my emotions the more I would cry hysterically.

I sat on one of the seats placing my things beside me as I covered my face with my hands, yesterday was probably the worst day of my life, I've just been walking constantly and to finally find somewhere to stay temporarily had just caused me more pain.

It hit me that I wasn't going back to my mate and pack.

How was I supposed to handle Alpha Herald myself?

I couldn't.

I'm not strong and I don't even know what he wants from me.

I felt someone's presence in front of me as I wiped my tears away looking up to the old lady standing in front of me.

She didn't say anything just sat beside me. I tried to calm down but I couldn't, I couldn't control myself my emotions were all over the place.

What have I done?!

The lady placed my head on her shoulder soothing me as I continued to cry on her.

"Shh deary" she muttered softly as I cried even more, this was embarrassing but I had lost control over myself. All my pent up emotions were just coming out as the lady rubbed her hand on my back soothing me.