Innocent Freaks (#1)

KAIA

I see a girls name pop up on his phone. There was two red heart emojis beside her name. That't not even the worse part... there is a picture of her kissing him on the cheek as he has a big grin on his face.

I feel so stupid, why didn't I ask him if he's available and single.

Ugh! Why would he message me if he has a whole girlfriend... I'm over thinking "who's that calling you" "a girl I used to fuck" "when was the last time you fucked her?" "Around almost a month ago" "have you been tested ever since?" "No I haven't" "you let me suck your dick when you haven't even been tested since the last girl you fucked! June what If you give me something" "I don't have anything Kaia" "that's what all mother fuckers with chlamydia or gonorrhoea say".

I am so utterly upset and disgusted with myself. Im always so precocious I just got lost in the sexual tension that we have between each other.

The tears are already down my face before I get out of my thoughts as I feel his finger slide across my check, but I move out the way before he can fully wipe my tear away.

Im so scared what if I have something and he is being so silent. What if he is now thinking if he has something himself.

This is crazy. This is crazy! I am way too pretty to get a sexual transmitted infection.

"You need to get tested, until you do, do not call or text me" "Kaia you are being a little dramatic don't you think?" "Fuck off Jean! You brought your dirty dick here without even thinking about spreading something onto me!" "If you loved me J you would have gotten tested, but clearly I was wrong about that."

"I do love you KK more than you know! I was just thinking about how much I love and don't have any lust towards you on my way to pick you up today" "J I don't want to hear it!" "I got tested before I started getting sexually active. "I got tested actually after our first link up, and intense make out". "Kaia im sorry I will go get tested right now".

"June just leave seriously, I don't want to see your face right now" he grabbed his sweater and a few moments later I hear the front door open and close.

I slump myself onto my bed. The tears are still streaming down my face. I am upset about him not getting tested, but I am upset that he still has other girls feeling like they have easy access to him.

The jealousy is running deep through me right now. I get up to go brush my teeth and tongue again. I don't know why I am freaking out but you can get something from pre-cum..

My eyes are getting so swollen and puffy from crying and I just need to rest for a moment. I feel so overwhelmed right now, I really like him a lot.

I close my blinds, put on my fluffy tracksuit and snuggle myself into bed.

As I open my laptop my comfort show already starts playing which is Greys Anatomy as my phone goes off.

Kaia please I am so sorry, I'm at the clinic right now.

*One attachment*

It is cute that he sent a picture for proof but I am still upset with him.

June I'm upset with you and worried fo my health... I need some space from you.

Babygirl please we can get through this together

There is no us in this situation it hasn't even been a month of us being "together" June...

I can't believe even though I am upset with him, him calling me babygirl gave me butterflies in my stomach. I really hope he gives me my space...

I will reach out to you J I promise just please let me know the results and then we can move on from there.

What will you do if they come back positive with something?

I don't know J, I'll just figure it out from there... have a good rest of your day

You too mama.

This boy really does something to me but I am still upset.

Im curious who this next girl is or if they dated? Just fuck buddies? My mind is wondering.

Oh my, I really need to stop obsessing.

Dr. Avery comes up on my screen and June immediately leaves my mind. This man is so fucking fine but my future bae is fine too..

I feel like this is a mistake I am making.. maybe I am being too hard on him, but he should have been more cautious if he wanted to get serious with me so quickly..

That's such negligence and I can't except it..

I get more snuggled into my blanket. I hear my family coming home as the front door keeps opening and closing but I cant bring myself to get out my room and have them witness my swollen eyes from crying

I begin to dose in and out of sleep as my mind trails from Dr. Avery to June but it finally sets on June as my eyes completely close for the rest of the night. 

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