HEEJAKE • HAVING YOU NEAR ME

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Tonight we’ll touch

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Jake opened the door to Heeseung’s apartment, his nose ready to smell the natural laundry detergent scent of the room mixed with the smell of strong alcohol and cigarette smoke. He hated the smell when he first came here, but he got fully accustomed to the weird combination of smells after sleeping with the older boy for almost a year already.

He’s been trying to survive for that long with his body littered with love bites that weren’t exactly formed with love, rather lust.

But today isn’t the same.

Heeseung was not lying on the couch nor the cold floor, he wasn't holding a bottle of beer nor a cigarette. In fact, he isn’t in the living room at all.

“Heeseung-hyung?” Jake called out, confused whether he entered the wrong door although it opened using the same passcode.

Everything around the room was the same as how he remembered it.

“What’s taking you so long to remove your shoes? I’m in the kitchen, come here,” Heeseung’s voice came from the kitchen, sounding very demanding.

Startled, Jake kicked off his shoes before skipping to the kitchen. He found Heeseung rummaging through the cupboards while this refrigerator was open on the side, empty. There was only a cup of coffee on the small, round dining table and nothing more.

“Have you run out of alcohol? You should’ve told me, I could have bought some on my way here,” Jake said as he walked towards the older boy. “And groceries too, you seem out of stock.”

Heeseung only shook his head as he closed the cupboard and kicked the refrigerator’s door closed. He then finally faced Jake.

“What’s up?” Jake awkwardly asked.

Heeseung smiled at that as his hands found its place on the younger boy’s small waist and pulled him closer before sealing the remaining distance between their faces with a kiss, their lips brushing softly with no tongue involved.

Jake didn’t expect it as the older boy never did this sober. Whenever they kiss, the older boy’s lips already tasted bitter from liquor. But now, it is different.

When Heeseung’s tongue brushed on Jake’s lips asking for permission, Jake happily complied by opening his mouth. He welcomed Heeseung’s hot tongue inside, letting it lick every part of his mouth and wrestle with his own tongue. Until Heeseung pulled away and stared at Jake’s wet lips.

“Bitter,” Jake commented, face scrunching up slightly as he gulped down the remaining taste of Heeseung’s saliva in his mouth. “But bitter coffee tasted better than alcohol,” Jake added before he dove in again for another kiss.

They finally made up after their argument last night. Heeseung called and asked if Jake could come to his house, and of course Jake never said no. Jake apologized but Heeseung never uttered a word and just continued kissing him.

Now, they ended up on a bed together with Jake underneath the Heeseung, kissing sloppily after reaching their climax.

The kiss didn’t last long as Heeseung pulled away, lust leaving his eyes as he stared back at Jake's innocent one’s.

The eyes that radiate happiness for unknown reasons.

“Hyung~” Jake whined, pulling the older boy in a kiss again but Heeseung didn’t even move.

He just stared at the younger boy’s eyes even longer. Until Jake’s eyes squinted in annoyance because of not getting a kiss. Heeseung blinked before the lust started burning in his eyes again.

“What do you want?” Heeseung whispered, his lips barely touching Jake’s plump ones as he spoke.

Jake smiled knowing that Heeseung will kiss him again, touch him again and eventually have sex with him until dawn. Until their body gave in, until they were both covered in sweat and cum, until his body was painted with love bites once again.

He hates the pain but the memories were worth it. The sweet nothings Heeseung would whisper to him every now and then like, “Jake, you’re doing good,” “Baby it’s okay, go on,” it’s all enough to brighten Jake’s mood. It was enough to heal all the bruises and cuts all over his body.

Heeseung’s lips brushed against his but it’s just that. Jake’s beautiful imagination crushed down when Heeseung detached himself from him and flopped his body next to Jake.

“Hyung,” Jake protested as he turned to his side and faced Heeseung who already had his eyes closed.

“I’m tired,” Heeseung muttered quietly as he moved his arm to Jake’s waist. His hand squeezed it a bit before whispering a sweet “Good night.”

Jake was left unsatisfied but amusement slowly filled his eyes as he stared back at the older boy’s sleeping face. After the first night they shared together, Jake hadn’t seen a sober Heeseung ever again. Whenever they meet, the older one already tasted liquor.

Now, he was being hugged by a fully sober Heeseung in a bed, just the two of them. A smile slowly painted Jake’s lips as he scanned the older boy’s peaceful face. Heeseung is breathtakingly beautiful from any angle. From his deer-like eyes, which looked innocent and scary at some point, his perfectly high nose and his lips. Jake couldn’t help but lean forward and give it a kiss.

It was soft, except it’s currently losing its natural pink colors after all those cigarettes and liquors Heeseung had.

Heeseung’s complexion just made everything about him look more beautiful, at least in Jake’s opinion. No other guy could catch Jake’s attention other than the man who’s hugging him right now.

Jake didn’t care if Heeseung didn't feel the same. He was content having a moment like this with the older boy.

“Good night, Heeseung-hyung,” Jake whispered before giving him another quick kiss on the lips, eyes fluttering close as the sleep invaded his system as well.

Heeseung’s touch may be made out of lust but it made Jake happy. That’s enough reason for him to keep coming back and staying.

Jake missed the chance to see the moment where Heeseung’s eyes fluttered open, completely awake. The older boy remained silent and stared at Jake’s sleeping face all through the night.

this is the last for tonight.