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Ignored

I feel ignored
By everyone
By everything
The one I loved left
I found someone new
They won't ever love me
The pain gets easier
I learn to live with it
I don't want to but I will
If it makes you happy
Then I will do it
You go off with them
I'll be here
Picking up the pieces
Of my shattered heart
Everything will be okay
When I put on my fake smile
And laugh with you
And you don't notice
Ive gotten skinnier
I don't eat as much as I used to
I can't
It disgusts me
Food
I don't want it
I eat less of my lunch
Yet you don't seem to notice
Not even when you watch me
At lunch
You don't notice
And when you hug me
And I blush
But it's covered by makeup
Because I'm insecure
I can't help it
Nobody notices me
Nobody notices anything
I just get ignored when I try to talk
But it's okay
I'll smile and laugh
While you are fooled by me
And I laugh
At how foolish you are
To believe I'm okay
Why
You know who I am
You know about me
You know I'm not okay
I never will be
But your happy and that's all that matters
I'll go pick myself up
And carry around this body
This limp, empty, useless
Body given to me