Bound by freckles (Sebastian Sallow x Garreth Weasley x f!MC modern AU)

38th Chapter - Holidays End

"Are you sure?" asked Arwyn, as Garreth just handed him a small knife. "You're not going to kill me, so go ahead."

Things were seemingly getting heated in the living room, and so, now, were we. We undressed and both men leaned over me and kissed me.

Arwyn's hand rested on my cut thighs while Garreth's fingers immediately sought my entrance.

Arwyn showed Garreth how hard to press and which places not to cut, and then we started.

Garreth, like me, had little inhibition about hurting himself and Arwyn was more than overwhelmed with all the excitement he was experiencing. He, who was so fond of talking during sex, could do no more than mumble incomprehensibly, moan slightly and stammer as he kept twisting his eyes as if he were in a trance.

When Rhys and Sebastian joined us from the living room, and Sebastian also made a small cut on himself, Arwyn fainted for a moment and after this very extensive session, we all lay down in bed, freshly showered, cuddled up to each other.

The next day, by now it was Friday, Sebastian, Arwyn and I went to the museums in Inverness while Rhys and Garreth stayed home to play together. It was a quiet, pleasant day, however Arwyn and I knew that tomorrow our time together would be over for the next few months, and that dampened our basic mood immensely.

We both fell asleep cuddled together on the sofa, where we woke up the next morning together and further cuddled together. Just like every morning in the last few days, his grey eyes blinked at me before he hugged me tightly.

"My little, sweet, beautiful Caelie.... Fuck, I don't want to leave." he said softly. "I don't want you to leave either," I replied just as quietly. "Caelie? It's definitely too soon for such powerful words, I suppose, but I can't describe it any other way. I've never felt anything like this before. But Caelie, I love you," he said softly, "I don't want an answer to that either. In fact, I forbid you to answer it, positively or negatively. We don't know each other well, and probably you can hardly speak of love, but what I feel for you is so intense.

And I don't even mean sexually. No, I feel the need to take every single star from the sky and do everything I can to make you happy. I want to grow a rose the colour of your hair so I'll always be reminded of how outrageously beautiful you are. Fuck, that sounds so cheesy, but I really mean it. That's exactly how I feel when I think about you," he said with a bright red head and an embarrassed look on his face, "I've slept with a lot of women and had a few short relationships, but no one has ever made me feel what I currently feel.

And that was true even before you willingly let me hurt you. Never have I even felt the need to see someone again. I've never exchanged phone numbers after a gangbang on drugs. Never before have I found it so easy to speak my secrets and my thoughts, and never before have I found it so incredibly difficult to consistently enforce what are actually deliberately strict rules.

That might be a turn-off for you, but I don't think I really want to dominate you. Sure, I want to dominate you a little bit, but not completely. I do want you to follow me all the time and be naked, but you're the first woman whose moans don't annoy me, but turn me on and whose orgasms I also enjoy myself, because I love to see you completely aroused. I now understand Sebastian what he meant when he said that he wants to experience your arousal with all his senses.

You're the first woman I've really seen on the same level as me. And these are all the reasons why I can say that I love you. Even though we haven't known each other long." "And I'm really not allowed to answer that?" "No, you're not allowed," Arwyn replied with a smile.