🃏 Adulthood 🃏

♦️ Tradition ♦️

Disclaimer: The story told here is fictional.

- Tradition
(Poem by me)

Let them not build houses on the high hills
They shouldn't give girls to overseas
This is my truth, I'm not lying for the thrill
But you only stare as I fall on my knees

They came to ask for me
And you gave me away
Don't punish me like this, please
Just accept me, I don't need you to pray

I wish I could poison your coffee
But I'm forced to agree
I no longer connect with my body
I can't accept this horrible reality

Putting henna on my hands
Lit up the gloom with your candles
I only look at my wristbands
They all feel like shackles

Singing about my sorrows
At least you got that right
It will all worsen by tomorrow
As I'll suffer all night

I hear car horns, but I don't love you
I don't want you, but I have no choice
You've taken away my voice
At the end of the month, it's due

In my wedding dress
I'm holding the flowers
You continue to oppress
By celebrating a lie for several hours

I'm forced to say yes
So you don't harm me
You can't change me with this process
No matter to what degree

My heart belongs to a woman
But my family forced you upon me
I would've rather preferred an execution
Once I turned 18, they said I was ready

Deep down, you know that
Every day you express your resentment
You know I feel trapped
Though you shatter me, I still have remnants

Now I must even carry your child
Even though I am still one myself
I only cry while it smiles
I only strive to lower its health

I wish to return to my true love
But it's unacceptable, so we hide it
Towards people like us, the world is rough
For this life you've forced on me, I'm unfit

Ama dinlemiyorsun
Yüzün hep solgun
Beni hiç sevmiyorsun
Hayatımdandan gitmiyorsun

İstemiyorsan, niye yüzüme bakıyorsun?
Kötü davranıpta eline ne geçiyor?
Sadece canımı yakıyorsun
Hala neye bekliyorsun?

Erkek sevmediğimi biliyorsun
Ama herkezden saklıyorsun
Sevdiğim kıza kabullenemiyorsun
Böylece beni her gün kırıyorsun

Senin nefretin sadece aramızı bozuyor
Gönlümü saklamaya denedim
Böylece ama içimdeki çocuk kayboluyor
Böyle olmasını ben istemedim

Kına yapıpta ben değişmem
Ben böyle doğdum, böyle ölecem
Gerçeğimden çekinmem
Seni de hiç özlemem

[Written in: 20/02/2023]