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Vernon

Whatever you're going through, I hope that doesn't bother you for long.
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One month after Caratland, had passed in a blink of an eye.

And guess what? We were in the middle of preparing for a huge and special stadium tour. And it was worth it.

Holding concerts in such huge venues was a great achievement for any artist. And we had finally earned this opportunity.

Finally, we were achieving whatever we had once dreamt of.

These things used to seem way too far away in the beginning. But now we were getting closer to them, one by one and all we could say was that, this was just the beginning.

But standing in the middle of the practice room, all I could imagine was Coups hyung's and Jeonghan hyung's content smiles to see us achieving everything together.

They wanted us to succeed as much as me and every other member wanted to.

What did they do to miss this experience? Why couldn't they see this happening? Why weren't they here to be a part of this immense achievement?

"Hey, where are you lost?" Joshua hyung nudged me.

"Nothing, hyung." I sighed.

"Wow, stop lying." He gently rebuked me.

"Seriously hyung." I assured, "I'm just proud of all of us."

"That's true, we all are."

Right, we all are. Imagine if during those few points of time, we would've decided to give up?

But, we didn't. Our hardwork, will power and dedication brought us here.

Now, that I look back, I'm glad that we decided to fight against all the odds and stand up once again.

We were too broken, too shattered and too dejected at times but our team remained intact because we were a great team.

When I recall those days, they still manage to give me goosebumps.

How everyone just wanted to be surrounded by darkness.

How everyone was always in tears.

Along with being broken down on the fact that two members had left us, I was also very scared for the members I had.

Because, no one was sane enough to think right.

We were at the most dangerous phase because we were emotionally at our worst.

Probably, we still are.

But as they say, experiences give you lessons.

And the biggest lessons come after the greatest downfalls.

There were those few words that were always lingering in my mind.

"Even if I'm not there to hold you, please don't fall because it would eventually hurt me wherever I would be."

"You know I can't leave you guys. Will I ever be able to escape your hearts?"

The words of my hyungs. I could now feel the weight of those words.

Yes, Coups hyung, we didn't fall apart, I hope you aren't hurt.

Yes, Jeonghan hyung, your memories never escaped our hearts.

We still missed them a lot.

The only difference was that now we didn't have tears in our eyes but a grateful smile.

If they think we'll forget them then they're very wrong.

With time, I realised that we don't have a say in life and death. When it has to come, it comes. No one can stop it.