Heartbeat || Jake Webber

• beamer boy •

We used to hold hands like field trips
I'm a jerk but your dude is a real dick
Heartbeat - childish gambino

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*present*

I was sat on my couch staring at the tv screen in front of me. It was flashing and switching from scene to scene. I watched as the characters in the show started to make jokes I didn't laugh though I just watched.

I was currently on drugs and drinking a lot cause of the break up. I know it was three months ago but it's been hard for me and it's what takes my mind off it. Johnnie and Colby usually visit me regularly to check up and I also see them when we film videos some times.

When a camera is in front of me I just pretend I'm fine. The internet knows about the break up but not what's been happening because of it. We've been lying and saying me and Johnnie share an apartment  just so they don't see the state of the house and suspect anything. People have been noticing a little mood change in me but we just ignore it.

Me and Olivia haven't talked since she left me because it's to awkward now and it hurts me seeing and talking to her. Johnnie told me she already has a new boyfriend called Tom though. Apparently he's handsome and cares about her a lot so definitely no way I'm beating him.

I heard a banging at my door and I groaned as I tilted my head back annoyed. I stood up off the sofa and tiredly walked to open the front door. I opened my door and saw Johnnie smiling up at me as I leant against the door frame.

"What do you want" I asked

"I've come to check on you" he replied

"I don't need you guys to keep checking on me"

"Jake you are smoking pot and drinking like a lot everyday, ur not okay" Johnnie said as he walked past me and into the house. I rolled my eyes as I followed him in shutting the door behind me.

"Help yourself to whatever you want" I said as I collapsed back down onto the couch.

Takeaway bags and empty beer bottles surrounded
me and a pile of clothes were next to the couch. On the coffee table in front of me was some porn and some spliffs in a cigarette dish.

"How's Olivia" I yelled a little

"I haven't really spoken to her since yesterday when u asked but she seems happy" he replied and I scoffed

I heard Johnnie come out the kitchen and shuffle through the load of rubbish on the floor.

"Move your legs" he said as I sat up and he sat next to me.

He moved some rubbish on the table and placed two glasses of water in front of us. I rubbed my head as Johnnie leaned back into the couch.

"Do we have any beer"

"Jake you don't need a beer"

"Yes I do" I argued

"How many have u had today" I grunted as i picked up the water and Johnnie laughed.

I gulped down half of it before putting it back on the table and layed back. I looked at Johnnie and he was staring at me with a worried look. I scrunched my face at him and he shook his head.

"Jake you need to stop" he said

"What?" I asked turning to him

"Drinking and doing drugs and living in this shit hole." He paused "listen Olivia has moved on and so do you, go on a few dates or something, there's gonna be other girls"

"She was the one though Johnnie" I stated

"Yeah well she's not anymore..." my head turned and drifted off into space after hearing those words come from his mouth "you can't live like this forever Jake you need to change it, what if it gets serious and you die from drugs or something" he explained

"I can't"

"Why"

"Just physically I can't"

"What about mentally...try get out of that pit you've put yourself in I know you can jake if you try your hardest" he replied patting my back.

I sat forward and rubbed my eyes trying to get rid of the ache in them. My mind wondered off and began thinking as hard as it could about my struggles. Could I really be asked to try though.

"It's alright man, you'll get through this" he said as he stood up and walked to the kitchen grabbing some cookies.

"I'm gonna stay here tonight"

"No it's fine" I said shaking my head

"No I'm gonna try make dinner and ur gonna sleep in ur bed not the couch then tomorrow we are gonna leave the house" he said and I groaned

"Leave the house?" I asked and he nodded

"Yeah I know, go upstairs whilst I clean the living room and kitchen" Johnnie said

"Fine" I replied getting off the couch and slowly climbing up the stairs

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"Jake you can come down now" I heard Johnnie yell and I crawled off my bed and slumped down the stairs my hair a slight mess.

I walked into the living room and my eyes widen a little as I looked around. The house hadn't been this clean for like 4 months. I trailed my finger along the dining table and not dirt was left over.

I smiled as I hugged Johnnie tightly thanking him. I could tell he was taken a back I hadn't hugged him in forever he was probably in a little shock. He hugged back resting his head on my shoulder.

I pulled away and walked over to the sofa taking a seat before Johnnie pulled me to my feet again. I frowned at him as he dragged me to the kitchen.

"You're helping with dinner" he said and I leaned my head back annoyed "we could make this a yt video get this weeks out of the way"

"won't they wonder why we r in a different house" I asked as I leaned against a new clean kitchen counter.

"just say you moved out it's half true anyway" he explained

"Fine" I replied

Johnnie walked into the dining room and got the camera from off the table as he ran back into the kitchen