The Days That Count

44. The Day Of Withdrawal

ALIYAH'S POV

As we sink into the couch in the living room, drinking tea and watching the movie we chose somehow admist hundreds of recommendations, the atmosphere tenses up. I get a whole lot nervous thinking fuck, Heavenly and Jordan are going out and are going to leave us alone all the time. My gut is telling me the deed is about to happen soon but I just can't wrap my head around it.

Baek-Hyun's arm is on the backrest around my back and he is caressing my right shoulder slowly as we watch, pretending we are concentrated. He gives me a side look so deep; I act like I didn't see. Some more time passes. He becomes more focused on me instead of the movie, teasing me and joking about the movie from time to time. Baek kisses me on the cheek and the corner of my mouth. My body tenses up scared to even kiss let alone do something else, since I know it's gonna lead to something else. I start to babble how Jordan and Heavenly aren't gonna be seen around anymore since they started dating to kill some time.

"Seriously, they took months, no, actually, years since they've known each other since elementary, " I breathe out, "Can you imagine knowing someone that long? They must be really special to each other. "

Baek stares at me intensively, playing with a lock of my hair, "I agree two of them are good together but in general, knowing someone for too long doesn't promise you a happy future, and sometimes a person you just met is the person you care about the most. "

I am struck by his words and immensely outplayed by their sweetness. His eyes gaze at my lips for a second, lusting. I get lost in their twinkle. He is just the sweetest, the most handsome, wittiest guy I've ever known. He makes me speechless all the time. I gulp down the tension, parting my lips. His index finger gently grazes my chin, as he gawks at me as if I were a prize after a long contest. Baek leans in and slowly captures me in a kiss. His hand moves to my ear and then hair on the side of my neck. My neck gets the chills as he traces it with his hand, moving lower. I get lost for a second, savoring his sweet kiss.

He hums and kisses me more progressively, leaning his body on mine. Baek-Hyun's hand reaches my hip and squeezes. I find myself letting out a quiet uncontrollable moan. He returns the favor. His hands get more touchy-feely and I begin to grow nervous. As he proceeds to nibble on my neck, my pleasure increases, and so does my fear. I try to suppress it but my heart won't stop drumming. He is leaning over me. Oh god. This is really happening..

I breathe heavily as his hand comes in contact with my inner thigh. His lust for me is obvious as I feel him press down on me. My eyes shot open, wet with a moisture of tears.

"Baek- ", I breathe, getting anxious.

"Hm?", he kisses my neck, his hand coming to a more risky place.

"Baek, stop, please!", I push him with my palm on his chest, making him step back a little.

His eyes take me in, confused, worried, curious.

He breathes heavily, in need of oxygen, "What's wrong?"

"I- ", I breathe as my tears drop. I quickly stand up leaving him alone on the couch, "I need some air. "

"Aliyah! Hey!"

My eyes don't even dare look back. I just run out of the apartment, leaving him by himself. I try to dry my tears with my hands quickly but a sob escapes my lips. Great. I ruined our night alone. Way to go, Aliyah.

"You do nothing right, " I mumble as I knock on the guys' apartment hoping those two aren't doing the deed in there and are going to let me in. I move away a second later. Actually, I hope they're at it. Someone should be doing it at least. Just as I was getting ready to leave the door opens. It reveals Jordan in his shorts, shirtless and with messed up hair.