My personal bubble

Chapter 2

Robbie Amell. Robbie Amell. Robbie Amell.
That's the name that keeps on repeating in my mind. I know it's kind of stupid to dream about him since he doesn't even know me. But I just cant, so you could say I have a celebrity crush but not a full on crush like I have on moe. Just a crush on Robbie since he is smoking hot!! But I think that's just hormones. So maybe I do like those little neck kisses or when someone would hug me from behind when I make breakfast. But I don't know if my future husband would even like that let alone even kiss me. So you could say that I am sort of a romantic, since my parents showed zero affection towards each other I want to show every ounce of love to my husband to show my kids that love does exist. So maybe it will take a little longer since I'm wear the hijab and being modest, but if he still loves me no matter what than he's a true hubby material. I want to be woken up with a sweet kiss, hold hands wherever we go, dance together, make love, and much more. But as I've been told that none of these stuff exist, I'm just stuck in lala land. I think I read too many romantic books😬
But then again I isn't that good?? I don't know, I just want someone who can understand me, who will love me, who will support me, who will give me a meaningful kiss now and then. But do I expect too much. I like when a guy will unexpectedly hug me, who will tell me they love me, who talks about our future together. But I think there is only one problem, I'm afraid. I'm afraid that he won't love me, I'm afraid that he will leave me, I'm afraid he will break my heart, I'm afraid he will think little of me, and most of all I'm afraid that nobody will want me. I know I have many problems with my family and school but we can work through it. I just want to be loved. Is that too much to ask?? I want to show off to my friends and family that a guy loves me and want to marry me. But nobody said life was fair. I would want him to kiss me every time he leaves and comes back to work, have every single meal together, pray and worship Allah together,