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꒰ title . . . emotional glitch ꒱

꒰ written . . . in 4 days
april 27th, may 27th
may 28th & may 29th
edited on may 30th. ꒱

this song came about after listening to
"Make It Out Alive" by Malachiii. (go listen rn!!)

I suppose it could also be partially inspired
by "Let Go" by Beau Young Prince too.
both have similar themes and I relate
to both, so either way, it works lmao.

mental health isn't spoken about enough,
and I wanted to write a song about the anxiety
that I have. remember, everyone's experiences
are different, so not everyone - and maybe even
no one - will relate to this song. if someone doesn't
experience the same things as you, that doesn't
mean they are any less valid. everybody who goes
through this is heard and seen.

remember, you are not alone. we'll make it out alive.
even if you don't believe me now, we will.

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[ verse 1 ]

It hit me like Cupid's arrow

Smothering me in sorrow

Fear is next to follow

Like an inescapable shadow

My world is getting narrow

I feel so goddamn low, out of control

[ pre-chorus ]

And my chest is getting tighter

I wish my world were a little brighter

A flicker of tranquillity put out like a flame in a lighter

[ chorus ]

Anxiety is a bitch

Every time it hits

Feels like I'm being thrown into a ditch

Should really call my therapist

Thought I could keep it how it is

This is just another emotional glitch

[ verse 2 ]

Put my headphones on

Taking deep breaths, my sanity's gone

I listen to the beat to calm down

[ rapid inhaling and exhaling / brief instrumental ]

Need someone around

Can't be alone, it's not good for me now

My thoughts are so loud

This fear's gonna make me drown

[ pre-chorus ]

And my chest is getting tighter

I wish my world were a little brighter

Painted in shades of grey, it don't seem it's getting lighter

[ chorus ]

Anxiety is a bitch

Every time it hits

Feels like I'm being thrown into a ditch

Should really call my therapist

Thought I could keep it how it is

This is just another emotional glitch

[ bridge ]

Emotional miscommunication

Serenity's a hallucination

A world full of isolation

Fear's the only thing I see

Darkness engulfing me

Not how it's meant to be

Not supposed to be stressed outta my mind

Fear gripped me like a vice

It's a game, roll the dice

Make a move

No matter what, you'll get bruised

Heart racing, I always lose

Now it's getting harder to breathe

God, why won't this fear leave?

[ outro ]

And just like that, it's all gone

Hasn't been like that for so long

Now I'm doing better than I ever was

I'm just left with these emotional scars

The fire of calm flickers

Yet the anxiety still lingers

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[ 💜 ]

this is definitely my most
vulnerable song, but it's more
than necessary to get out there.

it was a bit of a struggle to write,
I've just had a LOT of writer's block
recently and the rhyming side of things
got on my nerves (as you can see with
the lazy rhymes/half of them make no
sense and literally don't work at all lmao),
but I managed to get it done!!

basically, it describes a panic/anxiety attack.
I imagine the bridge to get louder and more
intense (like the 30th in a way) until the outro,
when suddenly it's all calm and peaceful again.
the moment passed, and it's all over now, in the
blink of an eye. the main character is sort of
reflecting on the attack after it passed, but the
anxiety's still there; ready to strike again.

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