Rainbows After the Rain (Fuck and Forget Series #1)

32.

Warning: R-18

Rule

"Nico..."

Narinig kong may nahulog sa sahig at nabasag.

Nakawaang ang labi kong humarap sa aking likuran. Kaede's eyes were wide while looking at his thesis papers in my hands. The papers he thought I wouldn't see. The acknowledgement he didn't want me to know about. Fuck. So you work in secret huh? Pinapakilig mo pala ako nang hindi ko alam?

Malaki ang hakbang niya akong nilapitan at agad na hinablot ang hawak ko. Ramdam ko ang taranta niya na para bang nahuli ko siyang may ginawang kasalanan.

"S-sorry. H-hindi ko alam na...makikita mo..."

Nanginginig ang kamay niyang hawak ang mga papel at inaayos iyon, pasulyap-sulyap sa akin, namumula, halos hindi makatingin ng diretso.

Huminga ako nang malalim dahil para ng sasabog ang dibdib ko sa nabasa.

"What are you being sorry about?" I asked in a low voice.

Hindi siya sumagot kaya humakbang ako palapit at napa-atras siya.

"Van," huminga ako nang malalim. "I've always been wanting to ask you this..."

Napalunok ako. I stared at his eyes straight, to ask the questions I've been running away from.

"What are we?"

Lumaki ang mata niya. He pursed his lips together and didn't answer.

I took a step forward, killing our distance with my eyes fixated on his. I want his answer. And God knows I can gamble every card I have if he just ask me to be his. If he just took the fucking risk with me.

Ngunit sa bawat isang hakbang ko, tatlo ang hakbang niya palayo, determinadong panatilihin ang linya sa pagitan namin.

"We kissed. We touched each other. You're special to me. And I can also feel that I am to you too. Iba ang trato mo sa akin kaysa sa iba. And you get jealous when I'm with someone else... So tell me," I trailed off.

But I am also determined to cross that fucking line now that I found out he put me on his acknowledgement papers. Fuck boundaries. Fuck limits. Fuck lines. Fuck other people's opinions. Fuck their prejudices. Fuck me. I want him.

"A-anong ginagawa mo?!" He panicked when I didn't stop walking towards him, eyes focused on him.

"What the fuck are we? What am I to you?" I whispered huskily.

"Ano ba!" he tried to get away but I was quick to grab his waist and firmly made him lean against the study table.

"Nico.."

Napasinghap siya nang hawakan ko ang magkabila niyang balakang at kinulong sa gitna ng aking hita. I muttered a curse when his sweet scent attacked my nose.

"Please, tell me. I'm tired assuming things, baby. I'm tired hiding from the truth just because I am so scared to lose you. I'm tired with this set up. I want to know how much I mean to you. I want to know what do you feel about me. So tell me... please?"

Tinukod ko ang kaliwang braso sa study table, ang kanan ay nanatili sa kaniyang balakang. I crouched over him and inhaled his addicting scent. Fuck pharmaceuticals, they can close their companies. I've already found my favorite drugs. And I'm so fucking crazily addicted.

"Do you like me?"

"B-bakla ako.." his voice shakes.

I tightened my grip around him.

"Do you like me?"

"Bakla ako! Hindi tayo magkapareho dahil iba ako! Magkaiba tayo, Nico!"

I slightly brushed the tip of my nose to his cheek, making him flinched.