Celestial Luminescent : Mosaic of realms

ꨄ︎ Unrequited Love

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Beneath the Unspoken Words
 

  
  
i. Liking you
You're so enchanting that I couldn't take my eyes off you. Your dashing looks and mesmerizing gaze never cease to amaze me. Your eyes shine like the brightest star in the night sky, a star that I wish belonged to me.

ii. I admire
I wish you were mine so I could stare at you whenever I want without being scared that you might catch me. Do you know how my whole system gets excited whenever I see you? Whenever I know that I'll see you after just seeing you? God, what did you do to me?

iii. Confusion
Will you hate me, distance yourself from me, avoid me if I tell you all of these feelings I've been hiding? I am so scared to lose what we already have by asking for what I want but If I confess everything to you, will all these questions finally have an answer? or will you leave them unwanted?

iv. Falling
I wanted to blame you for putting me in this situation, but I found out it wasn't you all along. It was all my fault. I admit it, I didn't accidentally fall into Cupid's trap; I willingly jumped off, and there's no one to blame aside from myself.

v. I hope you like me back
I want to hold your hands like others do, spend my time and enjoy every second we have together, look into your eyes without being scared that you might find me weird, and tell you how much I adore you and all of my jealousy. I want to let you know everything, but here I am again, lying on my bed with my eyes closed and a big stupid smile on my face, dreaming of you. What a fool I am.

vi. Stopping myself from liking you
You stand out the most. I tried to avoid your presence, but somehow, Cupid loves to play dirty tricks on me. I don't want these feelings anymore because they suck, they hurt, yet you have no idea what I feel.

vii. I thought
I thought I had lost all of my feelings for you, but what am I doing here still dreaming of you? I thought I'd been doing well without you, but why can I still see you in the crowds? I tell myself that this won't last long and that I shouldn't worry. These feelings will fade soon, but as time passes, they grow deeper.

viii. Realization
Now I get it, why I could never get over you. It was because I was drawn into your eyes. You captivated my whole being, even my soul. But it was never your fault, it was me. All of this was just about me and my one-sided love.

ix. The reason
Now I know why I couldn't remove these feelings in my chest before. It was because I always looked for you in other guys, which was wrong. I always thought that no one could surpass you, so I gave up and let myself fall deeper before I knew it.

x. Memories
I remember doing everything just to get over this. I even gaslighted myself into thinking that I didn't like you anymore. I was consumed by jealousy and pain, without you even knowing anything about these feelings I've been hiding. But look at me now, as time passes, my feelings have faded. And this time, it's for real. I have already gotten over you. I have accepted my place, and that is behind you, as your friend, with no regrets.

༊*·˚ Scrivenrenity