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CHAPTER 14: ❝I Killed My Y/n❞ ♨️

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November, 2009

Y/n,

I don't know why I am trying to write this to you, even when I know this letter will never reach you, but I know one thing—if I don't write my heart down now, it may go crazy without you.

It's been two years, Y/n. Fucking two years! And I waited for you every day. Whenever the first sunray hit me and wake me up, my eyes wandered in every possible direction praying to the almighty that you were there. But in the end, it was merely me and my loneliness.

You are a curse to me. My lovely curse. No matter how much I tried running away, your curse pulled me to you.

Even if I tried to socialize throughout the day and allow myself to be away from my thoughts, I always ended up standing on my balcony, hoping with my every last strength that you come back to me.

If not come back, then communicate to me.

Sometimes I feel I should leave everything behind and join your corrupt group—at least I could be close to your presence.

I cannot even count, how many times I questioned myself exclusively on one thing—why?
Why do you have to leave? Why did Riko have to die? Why did you change so much? And why did you forget about our friendship?

Fuck friendship.

I think I have been in love with you for a long time. I don't know when I fell for you—was it the first time I showed you? Or was it the first time someone ever understood me? Was it the day when you were the only one with me when everyone left?

To be honest, I don't know what specifically made me fall for you, but I sure know one stuff—I am madly in love with you.

Wish, I could tell you this once in this life. Possibly if you hadn't left, my foolish heart would have never understood the amount of affection it possessed for you.

Wish, I could see you right now and embrace you.

Your foolish lover,
Satoru

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Present

"I killed my Y/n"

The words lingered in your mind throughout the evening when you remained under his embrace and suddenly he then teleported both of you to the tempered forest.

The trees stood tall with wide barks and the shadows embodied on your body when you reached there through the moonlight. You didn't struggle against the teleportation or his grip when your body remained flushed against his.

Your mind was still preoccupied with the words he spoke. Am I dead? But could you blame him for the fact that he killed you? No.

You knew in your heart always that If you go away now, you will never see him again for eternity. But knowing that you died in his hand sent a relief over your body. You wonder why was like that.

"Do you hate me? After knowing the truth?" He leaned his face to yours as he glided his digits over your warm cheeks against the cold air.

"I don't find any reasons to hate you" A sense of relief washed over him until— "But I do not find any reason to trust you either, Satoru"