Friends don't kill friends(Creepypasta fanfiction)

What i hide

I walked past Raven and Toby giggling on the couch.
I rolled my eyes and pulled out my iPod and listened to music.
"I'm scared to get close but I hate being alone. I long for that feeling to not feel at all. The higher I get the lower I sink. I can't drown my demons they know how to swim." I sang along.
What a perfect way to put how I feel.
I walked outside.
Why can't I feel better?
I watched Snow follow Liu, asking lots of questions.
I wanted to scream. Why can't they leave what's mine alone!?
I jumped when someone touches my back.
I turned to see Jeff. He too seemed to be watching Liu and Snow.
He pulled an earbud out of the ear nearest to him.
"You okay?" He asked.
I fake smiled "Yes" I lied.
He smiled darkly "And that's why you stole my knife to hurt yourself?"
My eyes got wide "How'd you know?"
He laughed "I didn't but now I do. Let me see."
I pulled my sleeves up to show him my arms.
His fingers grazed the little red scars.
I shivered slightly.
I forgot how much I loved his touch.
He lifted my arm to my face and kissed my scars.
"I still thing you're beautiful and I don't ever want to lose my best friend." He whispered.
I giggled and blushed "You like Pierce the Veil?"
He smiled "Those lyrics suddenly make sense."
My heart fluttered.
Why did he do this? He doesn't like me... Or does he still feel that way? I'm with his brother for fucks sake.
He touched my outer thighs " Did you cut here too?"
I winced as he applied pressure on my fresh cuts through my pants.
He sighed "Is my knife on you?"
I shook my head.
He nodded "I won't tell Liu as long as I get it back tonight."
I nodded.
He smiled widely "So since Liu's busy why don't we hang out? Like good times. "
I smiled and followed him as we walked around.
"How is it?" He asked "I mean having BEN here?"
I shrugged " I thought I loved him. I don't know what love is. Maybe I love your brother, I don't know. "
He frowned "Maybe you don't. Maybe you don't understand who you truly love."
I shrugged.
Suddenly we came to the edge of a lake.
I smiled "It's so pretty here."
He nodded then stripped down to his boxers.
I blushed and covered my eyes slightly.
He walked into the water and turned to me "Come in Angel, the waters fine."
I stripped off my pants and my shirt.
My arms and legs were covered in scars. Even my stomach was.
Jeff frowned slightly "Why so many?"
I sighed "I hate me. I'm nothing. I shouldn't be loved or even liked by anyone."
He shook his head "We all feel like that sometimes."
I walked into the water towards him and looked at him.
He had a couple of scars on his wrists.
"I did it because of what I did. I caused so much pain to the ones I love. I wanted to hurt myself but the fire destroyed my nerves so I couldn't feel it." He whispered then stepped closer to me.
I frowned "You're lucky, it never became an addiction to you."
He shrugged then hugged me and looked into my eyes "You've become my drug; my addiction. You make me feel when nothing else can." Then he kissed me.
And to my surprise I kissed back.

Sorry, the hospital wouldn't let me on wifi :/