Adopted By Lana Parrilla

Four

I opened my first box of things and started unpacking. After I got unpacked Lana said we would go to Home Depot and look for paint for my room. My first box of things included shirts and a few pairs of shoes. I laid the shoes on the rack, and hung the shirts up. This was going to take a while.

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After a few hours of unpacking I finally finished. I screamed in victory.  Lana burst into my room with a 'what the fuck' look on her face,

"What the hell, Rachel?" I laughed so hard I was curled up into a ball on the floor with tears in my eyes.

"I see you've finally unpacked." I nodded.

"Yeah. How long has it been?" I asked.

"How long has it been? How long has it been? It's been four hours of me running around the house waiting for you to get done." I smiled at her remark.

"Pfft, come on you did not." She nodded, her eyes were huge,

"Damn right I did!" she said. I started laughing and got up and straightened my shirt,

"Home Depot?"

"Home Depot." Lana smirked.

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I got out of the car and ran to the door, dragging Lana behind me. I drug her all the way to the back of the store where they had the room decor stuff. I started looking down the rows.

"There isn't anything here!" I groaned and fell onto the floor. Lana looked at me and I looked to the side of her face and saw the perfect color. I grabbed the sample and ran to the counter,

"Do you have any of these in stock?" the little old man smiled, showing unbrushed, yellow stained teeth.

"Yes ma'am, I believe we do. Come with me." I waved Lana to come with me, but of course she didn't come, and walked off with the man. We walked down to the end of the aisle and he looked at the sample, then to the rack. He pointed to a bucket on the rack,

"That's the one, but if you don't mind I just got back surgery a few weeks ago and I can't do any heavy-lifting." I smiled.

"Yeah, I got it." I took the paint and met Lana back by the samples I walked up to her and she turned around with her eyes crossed and her tongue sticking out, and had paint samples inbetween her fingers,

"Look, Rachel! I'm Wolverine!" I snorted and walked off shaking my head.

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After we paid for the paint we drove back to the house. On the way there one of my favorite songs' came on the radio and I started to mouth the words.

Well I'm so tired of the rain falling softly on the ground,

Just enough to get my feet wet but not enough to let me drown.

I've been laying in my bed wishing I had never woken,

Begging God to rid my head of every word you've ever spoken.

Broke my knuckles on the wall because I thought about the call,

Where you said you'd always love me,

Do you not tell the truth at all?

Lana looked at me sympathetically.

"Come on, Rachel, you can sing infront of me it's okay." I shook my head,

"No, I don't want to sing, I'm an awful singer." Lana turned up the radio even more.

"Sing!" she commanded. I looked out the window and started singing the rest of the words.

Well if I ever cross your mind,

Make sure you write down the times,

So I will know the moments I was eating you alive.

Now I lay here waiting for with the hope that I might find some sleep,

I need some sleep tonight,

Cause I've been waiting on your call,

But I know it will never come but I'm still waiting by the phone.

And don't you dare, don't you dare,

Say you've ever loved me or even tell me that you cared.

Cause you knew what you were doing and you know just what you've done.

How dare you say you miss me with your spit still on his tongue.

I am broken.

I am beaten.

I'm mistreated and I'm torn.

I am cold with no direction but I'm lost without your warmth.

I'm trying to find some hope that I might get the chance to breath.

Get off my mind, give back my heart and get the fuck away from me!

I know I couldn't give you much,

But I know I gave my best,

You were always my princess ,and now he's sliding up your dress.

And I know I gave the world everything I've ever had,

Johnny Cash said love would burn,

I never knew it'd hurt this bad.

Well I'm so tired of the rain,

Falling softly on the ground,

Just enough to get my feet wet but not enough to let me drown.

I've been laying in my bed wishing I had never woken,

Begging God to rid my head of every word you've ever spoken.

Broke my knuckles on the wall cause I though about the call,

Where you said you'd always love me, do you not tell the truth at all?

So if I ever cross your mind,

Make sure you write down the times,

So I will know the moments I was eating you alive.

You are the itch that's on my back.

You are the gum under my shoe.

You are the horrors of my past.

You are the chill that haunts the room.

You are the creaking on my steps.

You are cancer.

You are plague.

You are regret.

You are disease.

I wish that you would go away.

We pulled up to the house and she turned off the engine,

"Rachel, I'm here if you need me. You just have to come to me." I gave her a small nod.

"It just feels like nobody in this world could ever give a shit about what I say or do." Lana nodded and put her hand on my knee and rubbed it,

"Let's order some Chinese and watch Netflix. That good with you?" I smiled and wiped the tears from my eyes,

"Sounds perfect."

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I'll try to update more frequently this week but my birthday is Saturday so I may not update as soon as I said I will :( Oops. Anyway, I hope you all like it!

Bye, I love you all so very much!

-LeAnna