Yesterday, me and Milo finally hung out again after so long. I guess since her birthday was coming up, and I was going to be invited to her birthday anyway, her dad didn't care if we hung out again. After we called and played Roblox, I was certain we'd hang out more often!.. that was.. until today. Yesterday, I introduced her to a new game I really loved to play on Roblox. Now, she's playing it.. WITH HER FRIENDS. I didn't introduce it to her just so I'd be forced to be alone AGAIN. And worse of all, in a game I LOVED to play. I can't even join. And if I do, I might accidentally end up running into them. Why. Why. Why. WHY. I should've NEVER introduced it to her. If I knew she was going to just leave me out again, I never would've. Of course, I was stupid to think she wouldn't. Now, I can't even play a game I recently started loving to play over and over again, because of HER OTHER FRIENDS. I don't even know if I want to ask if I can join, because 'oH tHeRe's ToO mUcH pEoPlE'. A trio is totally better. A trio is more easier to forget someone and only focus on one. One of them will be forgotten like me. They HAVE to be.
And iconically, the day before yesterday, I got a slip for the school she goes to. I'm going to end up at her school. Great. Just way more easier for me to be forgotten. It's not fair. Why is she the one who says SHE is the one that is left out, when I'm ALWAYS?! I'm tired of listening to people's problems when I can't even do it myself because they won't listen, or I just don't have the guts to. I have it just as bad, why doesn't no one see that? I'm tired of it. Please. Can't they notice? Can SOMEONE notice? I'm tired of waiting. I can't even tell them. They won't listen. What do I do.. what do I do..
I'm going to be alone forever. I don't want to be alone.
